My poem "Every Smile Has A Secret". By: Brandee Darden. 

Intro to my blog!! 

Hello, my Shinning Star Butterflies!! It's your girl, Brandee here with another blog! Happy Friday or in other countries, Happy Saturday! OMG! It's Friday already! This week is flying by! I hope everyone is doing well and amazing!! If you are not doing well and amazing, that's okay! Everything will be okay! Just take it a day at a time! Everything will be okay! On Wednesday, I talked about my blogging experience and how it has been so far and honestly; when I started my blogging experience, I didn't know how much it would mean to me or even become my daily routine! I wake up at 9 am and work on my blog and I honestly love it! I am so happy that I am doing it and I enjoy doing it so much! For today's blog, I am going to talk about my poem called "Every Smile Has A Secret". I am going to talk about when I was writing this poem, what was I thinking? Why was I thinking about that thing? What is the meaning behind that poem? Why is the meaning behind the poem so significant? If someone is hiding behind a smile and they are acting like they are okay but really, they aren't! What is my advice to help them get through it? Why would I give someone that advice to help them out? Are y'all ready for today's blog? I know that I am! Let's get started! Shall we? We shall!! 

My poem and why did I write it? 

I wrote a poem called "Every Smile Has A Secret" and it goes like this: 

"Every smile 

has a secret.

Every smile 

has something 

that people are 

hiding whether 

it's pain, or 

that person is 

suffering! Every 

smile is hiding 

the truth behind 

a smile because 

that person 

doesn't 

want to worry 

other people 

because they 

Are suffering, 

which who shouldn't

have to suffer alone! Never 

suffer alone"! This poem means so much to me! Some people put on an act that way they didn't have to worry other people! They put on an act to act tough around other people and act strong! When you see people like that, ask them if they are doing okay and ask them if they need a hug! The reason why I wrote this poem is because sometimes when I smile, I act like everything is okay! I act like I am okay but deep down inside, I am hurting and I am suffering! I am crying and it hurts to know that you are hurting and it's hurts to feel like you are alone and you are not alone! You got this! 

When I was writing this poem, what was I thinking? Why was I thinking about that thing?

When I was writing this poem, what was I thinking? Well, when I was writing this poem, I was thinking about how when someone smiles, it is either real or fake! When someone fakes smile, they are acting like everything is okay and that they are strong but in reality, they are hurting or they are going through something really heartbroken or they also can smile for a good reason as well. Some people can smile for a good reason like they could gotten tickets to see their favorite band or someone might have gotten some good news or maybe a promotion at work! A smile can hide either good vibes or bad vibes, depending how the person is feeling! Sometimes, if the person is fake smiling, they are hurting and they don't want to be mess with! Why was I thinking about that thing? The reason why I was thinking about how a person is smiling is because a person's smile can tell a lot! When a person is happy, they smile! When they are hurting or not okay, they put on a fake smile because they don't want to worry the person or the people they trust around them. Never fake a smile around your family or friends because some people can probably read you like a book! Some of my friends and family are like that! Some people that I can do trust can read me like a book and it is crazy how some of my family and my friends can read me like a book but either way, that's a good thing! Just saying!! 

What is the meaning behind that poem? Why is the meaning behind the poem so significant? 

The meaning behind that poem is every smile holds a secrete! Every smile holds something than just a smile! Sometimes when we smile, we are happy but when we are sad, we cry but when there is people around, we want to act like we are strong people and that we can put on an act because we are strong people! If you are putting on a fake smile and acting like everything is okay, don't because if you have friends and family who can read you like a book, then chances are that they are going to read you and they are going to ask you "if you are doing okay"? Why is the meaning behind the poem so significant? The reason why the meaning behind the poem is so significant is because when someone puts on an act in front of you and acting like everything is okay, then they are hiding behind a fake smile! A smile is not just a smile! A smile is apart of who you are as a person and if you are going through a hard and difficult time, you need to tell someone because you need to be happy not hide behind a fake smile! Show your real smile because everyone has an amazing smile!! Don't y'all ever forget that!!! 

If someone is hiding behind a smile and they are acting like they are okay, but they aren't! What is my advice to help them get through it? Why would I give someone this advice to help them out? 

If someone is hiding behind a smile and they are acting like they are okay, but they aren't! What is my advice to help them get through it? My advice is tell people that you're not doing okay! Don't hide behind a smile and act like you're not doing okay because you deserve to be okay! You deserve to be happy! The thing that you don't deserve is to be sad! Don't hide behind a fake smile and act like everything is okay because deep down inside, it's not okay and it's okay to cry! Don't hide your emotions! Just let all your emotions out! Why would I give someone this advice to help them out? The reason why I gave this advice is because if someone is struggling, you need to help them! You don't want them to struggle because I don't like when people struggle! I hate when people struggle because it breaks my heart that they are struggling and you want to help them out so bad. With my advice, I try to give out the best advice that I can and trying to help people out means a lot to me! I want people to know that if you are hiding behind a smile and you acting like you are okay, chances are that you're not okay! Chances are that you are going through something really bad and you need someone to be there for you and you need a hug! It's okay to tell people that you are not doing okay! You need to tell people that you aren't doing well. Don't hide how you are feeling! Tell people who are close to you and who love you that you're not doing well! Everything will be okay! 

In conclusion/ Tip of the day!

In conclusion, if you are saying that "you're okay" and you are hiding behind a smile, chances are that you're not doing okay! If you are not doing okay, tell people that you're not doing okay! Instead of hiding behind a fake smile, tell people that you're not okay and you need someone to talk to. It's okay to feel sad. You can tell people "hey! I am not okay. Can someone please help me?" Don't hide behind a smile and act like everything is okay because if you are not doing okay, then tell someone! Don't hide behind a fake smile! Everything will be okay! Here is my tip of the day! My tip of the day is if you know someone who is struggling or even yourself, just know that you don't have to hide behind a smile. Let your emotions come out and tell people that you are not okay! Don't hide behind a fake smile! There is people who love you and care about you so much! Don't hide behind a fake smile! It's not worth it! Show off your real smile because your real smile is absolutely beautiful! Always love yourself for who you are and never change yourself because it's not worth it!

Alright, my Shinning Star Butterflies! Y'all have reached the end my blog post for today! I hope everyone has an amazing Friday or Saturday, wherever y'all maybe be at in this world! Just know that I am here for anyone if they need someone to talk to! Don't hide behind a fake smile! Show your pretty smile off! Have a good weekend and stay safe! I love y'all and I will see y'all on Monday! Happy Friday or in other countries, Happy Saturday! Stay safe and stay warm! I love y'all and see y'all soon! Peace! 💙💜😊

"Even If I'M A 
Little Hurt It's 
Okay".
-Jimin. I love this quote because yes, even if I am putting on a fake smile for the day because I am seem fine, but I am hurting but that's okay. I will be alright! I am a tough person who can get through anything! 

"Smile 
It May Be A Bad Day, 
Not A Bad Life."
-BlackPink. I love this quote because yes! You might be having a bad day but your not having a bad life! Just keep smiling because it is a bad day, not a bad life. 

I love this song by BTS!!! This song is called Blue and Grey by BTS! Every time I listen to this song, the first thing that comes to my mind is a gloomy day where you feel like you're doing okay, but you're not doing okay. This song is so beautiful and when you want to put on a real smile but you can't because everything seems blue and grey but you keep pushing through.  

                Talking about my blogging experience this year! By: Brandee Darden. 💜💜 

Intro to my blog! 

Hello, my Shinning Star Butterflies! Happy Wednesday or in other countries, Happy Thursday! I hope everyone had an amazing Tuesday and if not, that's okay! Everything will be okay! It just takes time! Never give up! On Monday, I talked about my end of the year! I talked about since it is December and it is almost the end of the year, what are some good things that happened this year? What are some things that weren't so good? What am I looking forward for next year? Why am I looking forward for next year? What are some of my favorite memories from this year? This year has taught me a lot! It has thrown me some curve balls and I am not going to lie. This year, I went through some hard stuff and one of those hard stuff was going through some days where I felt miserable and sad and felt like I wasn't worthy of love! I also had those negative thoughts in my head basically telling me that "I wasn't good enough or no man was ever going to love you because of my teeth". Well, I am not going to listen to those negative thoughts because I know that I am beautiful and I don't need a man to make me happy! I prefer to be on my own for right now and then, maybe in the future to be with someone! We will have to see on that!! For today's blog, I will be talking about my blogging experience this year! I will be talking about since starting blogging this year, how has my experience been so far? What has been the most memorable part of blogging this year? What can everyone expect from me next year? Why can y"all aka my Shinning Star Butterflies expect that from me next year? Y'all ready for today's blog? I know that I am! Shall we get started with this blog post? I think we shall!! 

Talking about my blogging this year and what has been the hardest blog to talk about out of all the blogs that I did this year? 

This year, I started my blogging experience on May 15th, 2021 and ever since then, I have been sticking with it and I am loving every minute of it! I posted my very blog on my room blog page and my blog post was titled "The meaning behind my room and my room so far". In that blog, I talked about what is the meaning behind my room and what it mean to me. The meaning behind my room is my room is a safe place where I can listen to Kpop music without being judged! I can enjoy watching Korean dramas and Thai dramas without being interrupted! My room is my safe place and it is my Kpop paradise and I love it so much! I am proud of myself sticking to my blogs and telling people my stories and what I have went through so far! If I had to pick the hardest blog to talk about out of all the blogs that I did this year, it would be my suicide attempt story! To me, that was the hardest blog to ever talk about because I went through some hard stuff back in 2018! It wasn't easy but in that part of my life, I lost the most important people in my life and on top of that, we also moved and I was very suicidal as well! When I was talking about it, it was the hardest thing ever! I never thought I would have the courage to talk about something that happened to me but I did and I am so happy that I can talk about it with my Shinning Star Butterflies! If you know someone or even yourself who is going through any negative thoughts or is struggling to get through life, help them through it and tell them that they are not alone! Suicide is NOT the answer! There are people who love you so much and who will never give up on you! Never quit!! 

Since starting blogging this year, how has my experience been so far?

Since starting blogging this year, how has my experience been so far? The way I can describe my experience so far is very amazing! Blogging has given me a platform where I can share my share my stories, my experiences, or any advice that I can give to anyone who is going through a hard time. I love that blogging can give me that platform and I can share what I have went through! Sharing what I have went through makes me a stronger person and I am willing to share my story with anyone who can relate to it! I want people to know that they are never alone and they will never be alone because I will always be there for my Shinning Star Butterflies. I want my blogs to tell a story and I want to convey that story the best way that I can! I want people to know that they will never be alone and that I will always be there for them no matter what happens! I want people to know that they are loved and that over here on my blogging journey, you are loved and that no one will never judge you because I will never let that happen! My blogging experience has been so amazing and I have enjoyed planning blogs and typing up these blogs for my Shinning Star Butterflies! I am happy at what I am doing and I will continue to do what makes me happy and what makes others happy as well! I hope and pray that my stories and my advice helps people out there in the world! 

What has been the most memorable part of blogging this year?

I think the most memorable part of blogging this year is coming up with a name for my fan base! I remember for months and months that I didn't have a name for my fan base and I felt so horrible for not having a name for my fan base but after coming up with a name, I was happy! I honestly love the name for my fan base because when I think of "Shinning Star Butterflies", I think of glitter, bright stars, and of course butterflies. I remember growing up, I have always loved glitter or anything shiny and that still carries on into my adulthood. I don't how old I am, I will always love glitter. Glitter is always my favorite thing and I will always love glitter! When I was growing up as well, I always love butterflies as well! Butterflies are my favorite and when I think butterflies, I think of them as a person who is growing up and maturing as they get older and that is what I felt like! Coming up with "Shinning Star Butterflies" is absolutely perfect and I love it so much! I will always keep that name for my fan base and that name will never be changed because I love it so much!! I am proud of that name and I am so happy that name will always be apart of my blogging experience and I am so happy that I can have that name for my fan base aka the people who love me for who I am and the person who I was meant to be! 

What can everyone expect from me next year? Why can y'all aka my Shinning Star Butterflies expect that from me next year?

What can everyone expect from me next year? Well, I think everyone can expect from me next year is amazing more blogs and more poems! I think my Shinning Star Butterflies can expect from me is more poems especially because I love writing poems and writing about what I have been through or talking about what is real! I also wrote a poem about my past self so that should be interesting! There will be a blog post about that very soon which I am very excited about!! Why can y"all aka my Shinning Star Butterflies expect that from me next year? Well, the reason why y'all can expect that from me next year is because I love writing poetry! Writing poetry has been apart of my routine and I am happy that it is apart of my routine! I think writing poetry and writing blog ideas have become apart of my routine is the best thing that has happened to me and I love writing a lot! It helps me get my feelings out and not only that, but also it helps what I am going through as well. I can't wait to share my stories with everyone around the world from India to Netherlands to United States! I am so excited to see what the future holds for me and my blogging!

In conclusion/ Tip of the day/ Question of the day??

In conclusion, blogging has become apart of my life and I am so happy that it did! When I think about blogging, the first thing that comes to my mind is how I am feeling at that very moment! When I am blogging, I am pouring out my feelings and showing everyone how I am feeling! I want people to know why I love blogging so much or what I am trying to convey through my blogs. I don't just do blogs for fun but I do them because I enjoy it! It brings so much joy to my life and it also brings people joy in other people's lives as well. When people tell me that I am an "inspiration" to them, that brings tears to my eyes because when people tell you something like that, it makes you feel good inside and it makes you realize this is what you meant to do and I think I was meant to write blogs and potentially write my own books. Here is my tip and question of the day! The tip of the day is enjoy what you love doing! Enjoy what makes you happy because if you love it, keep on doing it! Blogging has brought so much joy to my life that I want to keep doing it! Enjoy what you love! My question of the day is if y'all had to pick a favorite blog by me, which one would it me? Why did you pick that blog by me? How can you relate to it? Let me know in the comments down below! I would love to hear y'all's thoughts. I love y'all! 

Alright, my Shinning Star Butterflies! Y'all have reached the end of my blog post for today! I hope everyone has an amazing night or day, wherever y'all maybe at in this world! Just know that you are loved by so many people in this world including me. I will never give up on none of y'all! I had people gave up on me but I will never give up on anyone because everyone means a lot to me! I hope everyone stays safe and has a wonderful day or night, wherever y'all maybe be at! Also, if it is cold where y'all are at, please please stay bundled up! I don't want my Shinning Star Butterflies to get a cold! Stay warm and I will see y'all on Friday! I love y'all and stay safe! Bye everyone! Peace! 💕💜

My very blog post ever that I posted on Saturday, May 15th, 2021 on my Room Blog Page!! I am so proud of myself for how I far I made it so far! 

I called this outfit my "Blogger Girl" outfit and I absolutely love this outfit so much!! 

My first logo that I made for my blogging journey! I remember making this and honestly, it turned out so good! I love it so much!!!

This song holds a special place in my heart! This song reminded me that I should love myself no matter what! Always love yourself no matter what because you are who are for a reason! Always love yourself no matter what! Have a good Wednesday or in other countries, a good Thursday! Love y'all! 

                 

The end of the year! By: Brandee Darden! 💟💙

Intro to my blog! 

Hello, my Shinning Star Butterflies! Happy Monday or in other countries, happy Tuesday! It's a new blog week and I am absolutely excited for this week's blogs! I hope everyone had an amazing weekend and I hope everyone has a good week ahead!!! Last week, I talked about the aesthetic that I picked out for my room, the room signs: "Dream" and "Good Vibes Only", and fake plant vs real plant; which one would I put in my future home. If I had to pick which one is my favorite blog from last week, it would had to be the aesthetic for my room because the aesthetic for my room is absolutely amazing and I think the hot pink and the black looks absolutely amazing with the grey walls! This week, I will be talking about the end of the year, talking about my blogging experience this year, and analyzing my poem "Every smile has a secrete". For today's blog post, I will be talking about the end of the year! I will be talking about since it is December and it is almost the end of the year, what are some good things that happened this year? What are  some things that weren't so good? What am I looking forward for next year? Why am I looking forward for next year? What are some of my favorite memories from this year? Now, I should get started with my blog! Shall I? I think I shall get started with my blog post! 

Talking about this year!! 

This year, a lot has happened!! A lot of good things and some bumps in the road that I could get through! I went through a period where I didn't think that I wasn't good enough, but I know that I am good enough. It's just my brain was messing with me and telling me that I wasn't good enough. I watched some amazing people in my life get married and I thought it was beautiful. Watching people who you absolutely love get married is amazing! Another great thing that had happen this year was I started my blogging journey! To be honest, I honestly didn't know that I would started this blogging journey! I started this blogging journey on May 15th, 2021! My first blog post was on my room blog page and it is called "The meaning behind my room and my room so far". That blog is about what is the meaning behind my room and the meaning behind my room is I am just a girl who love Kpop and BTS! BTS has been a big part of my life and having some of their merchandise in my room and seeing some of their posters means a lot to me! My room is my safe heaven! My room is where I can escape from everything and just listen to BTS and listen to Kpop music in general! I can also watch Korean Dramas because I love Korean dramas. Creating a blog and talking about the progress of my room has meant a lot to me! Also, talking about what I went through such as bullying and suicide attempt has opened me up a lot and and I am not afraid to talk about those things anymore because I can talk about those things and say "that is apart of who I am as a person and I know I am not afraid to talk about it anymore". I am not afraid to talk about my suicide attempt anymore because I overcame it and I am happy that I can talk about it and say "I did overcame it and I am not afraid to talk about my past"!! 

Since it is December and it is almost the end of the year, what are some good things that happened this year? What are some things that weren't so good?

Since it is December and it is almost the end of the year, what are some good things that happened this year? What are some good things that weren't so good? The good things that happened this year was my dad and my bonus mom's wedding! You always want your mom or your dad to be happy, right? Well, I am happy for my dad because my dad deserves happiness and I am happy for them because they were meant for each other and I love spending time with them! The second good thing that happened this year was my older sister, Brandy getting married as well! You want your siblings to be happy as well, right? Well, being apart of her wedding was absolutely amazing! Seeing her happy makes me and I rather see her happy than not happy! The third and final good thing that happened to me this year was me starting up own blog! I can't believe that I would start my very own blog post! I started my own blog post on May 15th, 2021! It was on my room blog page! I didn't know what I was doing and I was just starting out! Don't get me wrong but, I was nervous at first because I didn't know what I was doing but not only that, I felt like people weren't going to like it. To my surprise, they actually like it and it made me so happy! My first blog post on my room page hit 124 readings and my first blog post on here reached 201 readings! I am only 23 years old and I can't believe that I am doing this! I am proud of myself! The first not so good thing that happened this year was my uncle passing away! That feeling that something is not right or that feeling when you love someone in your family so much that you don't want them gone; well, that is what happened to me. My uncle went to be with Jesus and it was so heart breaking. The most heart breaking thing is, I had to watch my dad cry! That is what killed me the most! The second thing that wasn't so good was when I went through a period when I was feeling depressed and I felt like giving up. There was a voice in my head and it was telling me "You aren't good enough. You will never be good enough". Hearing those things in my head killed me! I know that I am good enough. I don't want to listen to those voices in my head! Never loose hope! The third and final thing that wasn't so good was finding that I had a broken tooth that caused me so much pain. Yes! I was going through a really bad tooth pain in my mouth and everyone thought, "Oh! It's your wisdom teeth coming in", but sure enough, it was a broken tooth that was causing me so much pain! I am happy that they found the reason why I was in pain but the down fall was, I had surgery and that wasn't fun at all but I am happy that the pain is gone! 

What am I looking forward for next year? Why am I looking forward for next year? 

The things that I am looking forward for next year is working on more blogs and writing more poems! I think showing off my craft and what I am capable of doing is remarkable and amazing! Showing people what I love to do and seeing people who are inspired by me makes me realize that I was meant to be a writer and I would love to write my own book and travel around the world to meet my fans who read my book! That would be a dream come true! The second thing that I am looking forward for next year is a possible comeback for BTS! That would be awesome! If they come out with a new CD or a new album, I would freak out! The third and final thing that I am looking forward to next year is possibly finishing my room! That would be nice! My room being all finished and seeing it all looking absolutely amazing and fabulous! I am praying that I can finish my room sometime next year! The reason why I am looking forward for next year is because I feel like next year would be a good year! I feel like next year would be a good year and better year than this year! I pray for the better and hope for the worst! I am praying for good vibes only because I want to be happy and not sad! Being sad is not fun! It is miserable! I want to be happy and I am going to continue to be happy! Besides, being happy is much better than being sad! The second reason why I am looking forward for a possible comeback for BTS is because they have amazing music! Their music is so good that I enjoy listening to it! I am so proud of them! I am actually happy that they are having a break and spending the holidays with their family! They deserve it! The third and final thing why I am looking forward to possibly finishing my room sometime next year is because I want to see how my room will look when it is all done and completed! I am looking forward to seeing how it looks when it all completed and I am looking forward to showing off my room soon! So exciting!! 

What are some of my favorite memories from this year? 

Some of my favorite memories from this year was watching a live stream concert by BTS when they were in LA! When I was watching that concert, I felt like that I was there! It felt so amazing and watching them performing for us Armies was such an amazing feeling! I couldn't be happier just to watch them perform! My second favorite memory was starting a blog up! When I started blogging, I didn't know it was going to be a big part of my life until I started waking up at 9 am and getting to work on my blog and post it for my supporters! Working on my blog the night before and then, getting up at 9am and finishing it up and sending it to people has been a big part of who I am! When I think about blogging, I feel like this is my job and I absolutely love it! The third and final memory that is my favorite is watching my favorite people getting married! Watching my dad & my bonus mom, my older sister, Brandy and my brother in law, William getting married, it was such an amazing day to witness people who you love and who support you get married! You want them to be happy and I rather them be happy than not happy at all. I love them so much and I am happy to watch them all get married! 

In conclusion/ Tip of the day/ Question of the day?

In conclusion, this year was overall good and a little bit bad but that's okay because it will get better and I will never give up! I will continue to fight for being happy and I will continue to make myself happy! I will never loose and I want to continue being a person who is an inspiration to everyone around the world and I want to inspire myself as well! Here is my tip and question of the day! My tip of the day is never give up on yourself or dreams because if you giving up on yourself or your dreams, then you are throwing the towel and you are giving up on not just yourself but also your dreams. Never give up on yourself and your dreams! Always keep fighting for your dreams! I can't wait to see what 2022 has in store for me, my family, my friends, and my Shinning Star Butterflies!! My question of the day is: What is your favorite memory or memories from this year? What are some good things that happened this year? What are some not so good things that happened this year? Let me know in the comments down below! I would love to hear y'all 2021! 

Alright, my Shinning Star Butterflies! Y'all have reached the end of my blog post for today! I hope everyone enjoy today's blog post and I hope everyone has an amazing day or night, wherever y'all maybe be at in this world! If it is cold where you are at, please stay bundled up! Happy Monday or in other countries, Happy Tuesday! Please stay safe and just know that I love y'all so much! See y'all on Wednesday with another blog! Peace!! 💕💟

Me and my two older sisters, Brandy and Tyna at my older sister, Brandy's wedding!! 

BTS after their concert on the last day at LA! They did so good and I am so proud of them! I get to watch the concert again this weekend! I am so excited!! 

Since it the holiday season, BTS came out with a holiday mix of Butter! It is so good and I love it so much! Happy Holiday Seasons, my Shinning Star Butterflies! I love y'all!! 

 

Me at my dad's and my bonus mom's wedding!! I love how I did my makeup that day! It is so pretty!!!