Updating everyone and telling everyone what's going, why I haven't been blogging, and how am I doing mentally and physically??

     Hey everyone! It's your girl, Brandee Marie Darden back at the blogging desk. I hope everyone is doing well. I am doing okay. Just taking it a day at a time. When life gets rough, just remember that you are tougher and that you will get through it. Never give up!! Today, I am going to talk about some updates and telling everyone what's going on and how am I doing mentally and physically. So, y'all maybe wondering where have I been lately. 

Where have I been and what's going on?

Y'all maybe wondering, where the heck have I been? Well, last Monday I lost my uncle. My uncle passed away on June 21st, 2021. My world came crumbling down. I loved him so much. He was an amazing uncle, brother, dad, and a lot of great things to everyone in my family. For two days, I just cried and cried and cried. I didn't want to do anything and just lay in bed and cry. It sucked so bad. Loosing a loved one is so hard. It broke my heart when my dad started crying. From the moment that I found out that my uncle passed away, I hug my dad everyday. It is so hard to loose a love one. I will always remember my uncle and never forget him. He will always remember him in my heart forever and always. What's going on with me? Well, I am staying my strongest for my dad because I don't want him to see me sad. Honestly, it breaks my heart when my dad sees me sad or anyone in my family. I know that I am going to be okay and that I will be powerful. I know myself than anyone else. If I can get through anything, I know that I can.

Why I haven't been blogging?

Well, the reason why I haven't been blogging is because I have been taking a break from doing it. My reason why I haven't been typing is because when my uncle went to be with Jesus, my mind was clear and I couldn't think properly. My mind was blank and all I can think about is my uncle and my family. My heart at the time was killing me and hurting me that all I can think about was crying and not record my journal and not writing down ideas. It bugged me that I felt down on myself and my heart was breaking that I honestly didn't want to do anything at all. I will be back to start doing blogging again after my dentist appointment soon. I will be back before I know it and y'all know it. 

How am I doing mentally and physically?

Y'all maybe asking or thinking how am I doing? Well, to answer the question, mentally I am doing okay. Physically, I am just getting through this hard time. Yes, life can be hard at times but at the end of day, I will get through it whatever comes at my way. I don't give up easily and I keep fighting until I can't fight anymore. This death might have been hard on me, but life goes on and I know it's okay to be sad but I know that my uncle wouldn't want me sad and I know he would want me to be happy, so from this point forward, I will be happy and honestly, I need to be happy. I will be happy for my family and my friends. Yes, death is a hard and sad thing, but I know the people who went to heaven would want us to be happy not sad. 

In conclusion!

In conclusion, yes I went through a hard time last week and I am going through a hard time right now but at the end of the day, I have to be strong for everyone around me because I don't want them to see me weak. I will be okay and I will be powerful. There is no such thing as "I can't do it" in my vocabulary because that isn't who I am as a person. Being who I am is a tough and independent woman who can get through anything that gets in her way. If I can remember one thing that my dad that taught me, my dad taught to never give up and to never use the word "can't". My dad taught me to never give up on anything like for example, my dreams. I will never give up on my dreams and I will keep fighting for what I believe in as well. Another thing my dad taught me was never use the word "can't". I don't believe in the word can't because it feels like you are putting that into your brain and telling yourself that you can't do it but in reality, you can do it and that you have to believe in yourself no matter what. Always believe in what you do because you can come a long way! Believe me. I thought I couldn't do it but I did it and I believed in myself. 

Tip of the day!! 

Here is a tip of the day! If you are going through something rough and you feel like your world is crumbling and you want to give up, don't give up. Never ever give up and always keeping fighting for what you believe in. Always check on your friends and family because you don't know what they are going through and they might not be okay. Check on the people who you love because you never know when their last day is. Tell your family, friends, mom, dad, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, sisters, brothers, and other people who you love. Always love people around you and give them a hug because you never know when their last day is until it's too late. Once your too late, your too late so go love your love ones and tell them that you love them and hug them. 

Alright, your girl is out!!! I love y'all and everyone be careful. I hope everyone enjoy today's blog and I will see y'all when I come back officially. I love y'all and stay you! Never give up on your dreams and never change for anyone!!! Love y'all!! Peace!!!

"Self Love 
Isn't Selfish,
It's Important."
-Jeon Jungkook.
I love this quote because there would be times where you want you time and that's okay. If you are going through a hard time and you don't want to talk to someone, that's okay. You need to be selfish every once in a while. It doesn't hurt to give yourself self love. It is important to give yourself self love. You absolutely deserve it.  

"You're too young to let the world
break you"
-Kim Taehyung. I love this quote because something might go wrong in your life and you feel like giving up but you're too young to let the world break you. People can say mean things about you but you shouldn't let those things break you down. Never let those words break you.

My bullying story, why people bully me, how I overcame it, and where I am today!!

      Hey everyone!! It's your girl, Brandee back again!! I hope everyone had an amazing weekend and stay safe. I know I had an amazing weekend. For today's topic, I am going to talk about my bullying story and how I overcame it. To me, bullying is not okay. It is not nice to pick on people and bullying people. Being bullied is the worst thing ever. Being bullied face to face, online, or behind is the worst things ever. I have been bullied behind my back and bullied online. That is the worst thing ever. People would bully me because I was over weight and that hurt me so much. It brought my self esteem down and my self confidence. 

Why people bully me? 

People are so cruel when it comes to anything especially when it comes to bullying. When people were bullying me, it hurt me to the core. When I was in school, people would bully me behind my back. They were calling me and family fat and stuff like that. Stuff like that hurt me so much that I would come home crying everyday. The reason why people bully me is because I was overweight and someone call me the b word.  People can hurt other people with words and words can hurt other people. Words can leave such a mark on people that the person who is bullying the person doesn't see that it is hurt them. They don't know the impact that words can hurt and they can leave a scare on them. Getting bullied or made fun of hurts a lot. My self esteem and self confidence was boosted down because I was being judged for being overweight hurt me a lot, but at the end of the day I know that I am beautiful and there is no shame of being who I am as a person.

How I overcame it?

The way I overcame me of being bullied is when I was a junior in high school, I started to cry in my dad's car. The reason why I started to cry in my dad's car is because that day someone call me the b word and honestly, I was hurt. When I started to cry, I told my dad what was wrong and my mom and my dad went to the principal's office and after dealing with the hurt for so long, it finally stop. I was so happy when the nagging finally stopped. The way I overcame it is by being who I am and not having to deal with anger that I had to deal with. Going to school and getting hurt was the worst thing ever and the way I got over it was by just being who I am as a person and not being afraid of who I was anymore. You will you get strong when you don't have to worry about the hurt anymore. When you don't have to feel hurt anymore, that is the best feeling ever. Overcoming the anger that I had to deal with made me realize people can be so judgmental a lot and they can say mean things when maybe they might be insecure about themselves or anything like that. You never know what that person is going through and never judge a book by it's cover.

Where I am today?

Where I am today is crazy!! I am a blogger and I am a lot stronger than I was before. Before I would take everyone's crap and now, I don't take anyone's crap anymore. I went through a lot and I got through it. I am a lot stronger and I am better than I was before. The person that I was before was a weak person but this new person is strong and confident. I will always be that person who went through a lot in her past but the forgetting the past is the best thing to do for yourself because if you forget the past, then you are good. Forgetting what hurt you the most will make you powerful!! I am happy about the person that I am today!!! I am a strong, independent woman who doesn't need a man to make her happy. I have a family and friends who love me for who I am. I have a dad and step mom who are very caring and loving. I am so blessed on how far I have come. I can't wait to see where the future takes me. Who knows, I might be the next author or I could have my own makeup products. Only time would tell!!!

In conclusion!

In conclusion, I may gotten hurt in the past but it makes me the person who I am today! The person that I am today is the best person ever!! This tough woman who I am today doesn't give up easily. This awesome woman never gives up trying and she always fights for what she believes in. Fighting for what I believe in doesn't make me weak, it makes me stronger and I will never give up because 'giving up' isn't in my vocabulary at all. I am who I am and I am never going to change for anyone because why bother? Like, seriously! Never change for anyone because it is not worth changing for anyone and be your own person.

Tip of the day!!!

Here is my tip of the day: Never change for anyone!! Make your own beauty rules. Follow your own rules. Be bold, be loud, and be you! Being who are is the best thing ever!! Never be afraid to be your own person. Never be to afraid to take risks!! Be fearless and never give up! No matter how hard life can get, there is people out there for you who love you and care about you so much. Never feel like you are alone because you're not. I love you for who you are as a person! Stay true to who you are!! 

I love y'all and stay true to who you are!! Never give up and fight for what you believe in and don't let those people bother you because they are not worth your time! I hope y'all enjoy this blog and don't forget to love yourself. See you at my next blog! Brandee is out! Peace! 

"Don't compare yourself to others"- Yoongi. 
I love this quote because never ever compare yourself to other people you are different from other people and you are special!! 

Seeing this picture makes me happy because I am actually confident and I love being who I am!!! 

"The words you say make bruises that NEVER fade away".
-M. Yoongi. I love this quote because words can make bruises that would never fade and they will remember it forever!!



 

My blogging experience, how much this experience means to me, and why did I decided to start blogging??

      Hey Everyone!!! Brandee here. Welcome back to another blog!! I just want to say a huge thank you for giving me so much love on my first blog that I started doing a month ago today!! I can't believe it has already been a month since I started this blogging journey. This journey has been such an amazing experience and words can't describe how proud I am of myself and releasing things that are personal to me. I feel happy and blessed to have so many people who are supporting me through this blogging journey. I couldn't believe on how far I have come through this journey. This journey has helped me so much and I am so happy!! For today's topic, I will be talking about my blogging experience and how much this experience means to me.

My blogging experience!! 

My blogging experience has been a life changing moment for me so far!!! Getting my stories out there and explaining my struggles and what I have been through has helped me a lot. Telling people what I have been through and how I got through it has helped me through so much. Getting 140 readings on my first blog has been a life changing experience for me. To me going through this experience and telling a lot of people what I went through has been awesome. I remember talking about my suicide attempt and remembering what I went through opened old wounds all over again. Remembering what I went through in 2018 and remembering why I didn't love myself and the reasoning behind my suicide help me a lot with writing about it. It opened my eyes and making me realize that no matter I went through and why I went through it, it made a stronger person that I am today. The stronger that I am the stronger that I will ever be. No matter what you are going through, people will always be behind and always supporting you no matter what. I love blogging because it has helped me get my stories out there and explain my struggles. I am just a normal girl who go through a lot of struggles!! I cry, I bleed, I struggle, and at times, I feel like giving up but when I started blogging, I was like "I need to tell people my story. I need to help people who are going through the same thing as me. I love my blogging experience so far!!! If I could help 1 or 2 or 3 or people all around the world, I am doing my job and that makes me happy!! 

How much this experience means to me?? 

This skill that I have learned about and started doing has helped me a lot and help me come out of my shell. I didn't know that I could do this and over time, it would change me but it kind of did in a way. I never thought doing blogging would be something that I was interest in just because I honestly never thought about doing it. Over a month ago when I started, it become where I was feeling so many emotions and spilling out my emotions would help me get to where I am right now. Writing a clarification about my life or explaining what I went through would help me through a lot. Yes, it might opened old wounds up a little bit, but it made realize a lot of things that was going on through me and opening up the warmth me has helped me a lot. Doing this weblog has helped me a lot. This experience has helped and I will continue to do what I love to do and enjoy it as much as I can. I love doing new things that I never thought I would be happy doing it. This experience has been so amazing and I am so happy that I found something that I really love and passionate about. I will continue to write until I can't write anymore!!! 

Why did I decided to start blogging?

The reason why I started blogging is because I wanted to get my stories out there and telling people my experiences and how to overcome them. I love telling my stories and helping people get through their struggles when they are going through a lot. Helping people is what I love to do. I might not give the best advice in the world, but if I can tell people my story or the struggles that I went through, then I am happy doing weblogging. I enjoy doing blogging a lot. Creating new ideas has been an amazing creative outlet me for me. I love creating new blog ideas and thinking about what I am going to write about that day. I think blogging is the best thing for me because I have held so much emotions throughout my entire life and if I can type up what I am feeling or how I am feeling, then I am happy doing it and changing people's life. I love how some people say I am an inspiration to them and honestly, that makes me feel so good and happy!!! If I can inspire people, then I am so happy to do that!!! I will continue to get my stories out there and continue to inspire people who might have the same dream. 

In conclusion! 

 In conclusion, over the past month I love what I am doing which is blogging!! Weblogging has helped me with so much with coming out of my shell and becoming a better person. Doing something that I would never thought I would be doing is unbelievable!! I am just a normal girl who loves Kpop music and fan Girling over male Kpop idols. Now, I am a girl who loves blogging, Fan Girling over male Kpop idols, and listen to Kpop music. All I think about is blogging because it gives me so much happiness to write about anything. If I can open old wounds and talk about my suicide attempt, then I can talk about anything from makeup to my room journey. This is what I love doing so much and I don't think I would ever give it up. I love it so much and I am happy that I am doing something that I love so much!! I am so blessed to have so much support from everyone and words can't describe how I feel about receiving so much love!! I am so happy about how far I have come on this journey. I couldn't done it with my friends or family!!!

Tip of the day!! 

Here is my tip of the day! If you have a passion for writing or anything that you love, continue to do it. Never give up on your dreams and always keep fighting for them! Continue to love what you love because if it makes you happy, continue to do it. Keep on working hard on your dreams because if you continue to work on your dreams, at least you did it and you didn't give up . I will never give up on my dreams and I will always keep fighting for what I love and what I love to do!! My heart is in the right place and I will continue to do what I love to do!! Blogging is my life and I will never give up on blogging!!! I hope everyone enjoys my new blog today and I will see y'all on the next one!! I love y'all and stay safe!!!

Brandee is out!!! See y'all next time!! #bloggingislife #lovewhatyoudo 

Me writing down blog ideas while listening to soft Kpop music!!!

My fashion slash makeup blogs that I have done!

My room blogs that I have done so far!!

Some of my personal blogs that I have done!!! 

My blogging notebook that I write my days for my blogs and writing my ideas as well!!!

My May Recap!!!

    Hey Everyone!! Brandee here. I hope everyone is doing well and I am so sorry for not posting a blog yesterday. I hope everyone is having an amazing day and spending time with your family. Yesterday, I was not feeling great and all I did was lay in bed and watched Kpop music videos and regular videos. I am feeling a little bit better today, so here I am with another blog post. I hope everyone had an amazing Memorial Day and had an amazing day with family or friends or whoever you spent with. Today, I will be talking about my May recap. My May was so crazy but I enjoyed every moment. Every moment was a moment that I would never forget. From my 23rd birthday to my sister and my brother-in-law's wedding, it was a time that I would never forget. My 23rd birthday was an amazing day that I would never forget. I spent my birthday with my family and my two friends that I am glad we kept in touch after high school. 

May 1st- My 23rd birthday!! 

My May started with my birthday beginning of the month. Last year for my birthday, I didn't get to do anything and it sucked so much. This year for my birthday, it was the best birthday ever. I spent it with friends and family just like how I wanted to spent it. It was the best birthday ever. My dad woke me up and I had biscuit and gravy with bacon on the side. It was such an amazing and yummy breakfast. The next thing that I did after I had my breakfast, I got ready for my day. I got dressed, brushed my teeth, and did some light makeup. My niece did my hair for me. My hair looked absolutely amazing and gorgeous. I loved how my hair looked and I would wear my hair again like that. The way I had my hair was it was half away up with a braid down my hair. It was absolutely beautiful. My outfit was a black tank top with black leggings that were crisscross by my leg and a black and white plaid button up top. Around my waist, I wore a brown belt and for accessories, I wore a blue flower bracelet and gold and white pearl bracelet. For my makeup, I used a hot pink and a gold glitter, a light pink lipstick, and mascara. I looked so pretty for my birthday. After I got ready for my birthday, I went to the mall and grab me a bite to eat and waited for my friends to meet us there. After they came to see us, they got a bite to eat as well and waited for them to eat. After they ate, we walked around the mall and I got myself a hot pink headband from torrid and a pink polka dot makeup headband and a free mascara. Also, my friends got me some stuff from Bath and Body works. I love the stuff that they gave me. After we walked around the mall, me and my family went to MugShots and ate some good food. If you don't know what MugShots is, it is a restaurant here in South Mississippi and the serve milkshakes and burgers and so many good things. I love that restaurant. To end my birthday, we had Reese's ice cream cake and I opened some presents and I also got some late birthday presents from my two friends, Brooke and Mandy. May 1st was such an amazing day and I would never forget that. Receiving so many messages made my day!! It was a great way to start my birthday month!!!

May 8th, 2021- My sister, Brandy and my brother-in-law's, William's wedding.

On May 8th, 2021, my sister and my best friend, Brandy and now my brother-in-law, William got married. Everything was absolutely amazing and gorgeous. My sister, Brandy looked absolutely gorgeous and seeing her walking down the aisle and seeing her happy, it makes me so happy. Her happiness means everything to me. Seeing her happy is the best thing for me. I rather see her happy than seeing her sad. I love my sister so much. She is my best friend and my sister. Being in her wedding was the best thing ever and walking with my two great nieces was amazing. I would do it all over again if I had to. I love seeing my sister happy and I pray she continues to be happy. 

May 16th, 2021- When I started blogging.

On May 16th, 2021, I started blogging. When I started blogging, I never thought I would enjoy it and telling people about what I went through or about my suicide. I feel so relieved when I do blogging. I feel happy and I enjoy so much. I love blogging so much. I enjoy doing it and I feel better when I am blogging. Blogging for me is such an amazing thing to me and just telling people what you went through or what are your experiences are and how you can help someone is an amazing feeling or telling people that everything is going to be okay. Blogging is such an amazing experience and I love doing it so much. I hope and pray that I can continue doing it and continue making myself happy with it. I love it so much and I will continue doing it for the rest of my life if I had to. I enjoy blogging and I pray that people will continue reading my stories. 

In conclusion!

In conclusion, May was so good to me. From my birthday being in the beginning of the month to my sister, Brandy and my brother-in-law, William's wedding, and blogging, it was such an amazing month. I can't wait to see what June brings for me, my family, and my friends. I am praying for good vibes and good vibes only. May did me good and I hope it did everyone good as well. I hope everyone has a good June and I hope everyone continues to be safe and continue to take care of yourself. I love y'all and please, be safe. 

Question of the day?

Here is my question of the day: How was your May? What makes you happy? Let me know in the comments down below. I would love to know how was your May and what makes you happy. What makes me happy is being around family and friends who love me and support me. My May was amazing and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I hope everyone stays safe and continue doing what makes you happy! I love y'all and Brandee is out. See y'all on the next blog!! Peace out!!!

My birthday makeup look!! 

My birthday outfit!!

What my friends, Emily and Stephanie got me for my birthday!!

Some of the things that I got from my family!!

Me and my two sisters at my sister, Brandy's wedding!!

What my friend, Mandy got me for my birthday!!

What my friend, Brooke gave me for my birthday!!