All about my life!!!

Hey Everyone!! Brandee here!! So, today I am going to tell you a story about how I am feeling and what's going on in my life. I am going to talk about me in general. Being who you are doesn't make you any different than you already are. Being who you are doesn't make you any different. It's okay to be weird. It's okay to like whatever you like. That makes you different. 

In life, a lot has had happened. I was two weddings this year and last year, I started working on my room. A lot has changed in my life but I wouldn't change it for the world. I am happy and I am blessed. I love myself for who I am and I wouldn't change it for the world. Even though people have told me that I wouldn't tie my own shoes or read on my own, I still prove them wrong. I am very different from my family and that's okay with me. I am proud of being different. I love myself for who I am and I learned to love myself because I am okay with being different. 

How I learned to love myself and making myself happy?

I remember not loving myself for a long time. I didn't trust myself because I would always have self doubt and I never loved myself. I would go through thoughts in my head and telling myself that I wasn't never good enough or I didn't have the self-confidence in myself because I never felt comfortable in my own body but that changed for the best. I started to love myself for the way I am and I was proud to love myself for the way I am. I would never have those negative thoughts in my head because I don't deserve those negative thoughts. Those negative thoughts are nothing but a waste of my time and a waste of everyone's time as well. You have to come to terms by loving yourself and making yourself happy. You need to make yourself happy because making yourself happy is the best thing for you. It is the best thing for your mental health as well. The things that I love to do is by listening to Kpop music. Listening to Kpop music makes me happy and I get lost in it. I love listening to Kpop music a lot. It makes me happy. Another thing that makes me happy is writing down makeup looks. I love creating new makeup looks because it makes me look forward to wearing the makeup looks. I love makeup because it is my passion. I love makeup so much and I will always love makeup. If I work hard one day, maybe I could have my own makeup boutique and my own makeup line. That would be so awesome!! The third and final thing that makes me happy is talking to my friends, hanging out with my family, and loving on my great nieces and nephew. I love talking to my friends, hanging around my family, and loving my great nieces and nephew. My great nieces and nephew are my life. My life revolves around those children. I love those children so much!! I love talking to my friends a lot especially my ARMY friends. I have amazing friends and I am blessed to have those friends who are there for me. I love hanging out with my stepmom and my dad. They make me really happy and they always give me good vibes. I love them both so much.

What happened in 2018? 

In 2018 was one of the craziest years ever!! In 2018, we moved out of Long Beach, Mississippi and moved to Wiggins, Mississippi. Almost a month after moving into our new house, I tried to commit suicide. I felt worthless. I felt abandoned by someone that I loved. I lost my grandpa in 2017. It was so hard for me that I wanted to go and be with my grandpa. I just couldn't handle life anymore because it was so hard and I just couldn't handle it but I remembered that I have family and friends who love me for who I am and the person who I will ever be. Now, I don't even think about those thoughts anymore because I am happy and content with my life now. I will always love myself for who I am and for who I was. I may have made mistakes in the past but that makes me a better person. I will own my mistakes and grow from them. People make mistakes and people weren't born perfect. As RM said from BTS "Even if you're not perfect, you're limited edition." -Kim Namjoon. I love this quote because not everyone was born perfect but everyone was born limited edition. I love quote so much.

2019! The year that I became an BTS ARMY!!!

On May 10th, 2019, I became a BTS ARMY!! On May of 2018, I was watching the 2018 Billboard Music Awards show. When I started watching the show, I saw the band performing aka BTS. When I was watching them performing, I was so memorized by the performance. The performance was so good and I love the performance so much. After I watched the performance, I went to my room and started to listening to some of their songs. The first song that I ever got into by BTS was Fake Love. That song reminded me of me because I would give myself fake love because I felt like I didn't deserve the real love that I deserve. I would like everything was alright and hide behind a persona because the real me didn't deserve real love but I do. I deserve real love like everyone else does. The second song that I got into by BTS was DNA!! I love that song so much because it is very upbeat and I love the video because it is so bright and colorful. The third and final song that I got into by BTS was Idol. I love that song because it reminds me that it is okay to be who I am. It's okay to be weird. I love being who I am. I am proud of who I am. I love myself for who I am. BTS taught me it's okay to be weird and to love myself. I love BTS so much. I am proud to be an BTS ARMY for two years now and I wouldn't trade it for the world. They came into my life when I didn't know how to be happy. I am who I am because of BTS!!

2020- My world flipped upside down but not all 2020 wasn't bad at all!!

In 2020, my world flipped upside down. In 2020, the Coronavirus hit us. We were on total lockdown and we couldn't do anything. Everything was closed and everyone was dying from it. On May 2nd, a day after my birthday was very hard for me. My ex boyfriend for over a year broke up with over text message. It was a hard day for me. I didn't know how to react or how to feel. My world was shattered into millions of pieces. I forgot how to breathe or how to think or how to love myself. It was hurtful to me because I loved my ex boyfriend more than in this world. About 3 or 4 months after he broke up with me, he told me that he cheated on me. To be honest with you, I am not going to lie that hurt me so bad but at the same time, I didn't care. I am my own person and I love being on my own. I  am the only person to make myself happy. I would love to be on my own for a while until I meet the right guy and complete my dreams of being a makeup artist and an interior designer. Not all 2020 was all bad though!! On October 13th, I started working on my room. It was an amazing time painting my room with my dad and my stepmom. We were having paint wars! It was so fun and I enjoyed it. On December 25th, on Christmas Day, my dad proposed to my stepmom. It was a day that I would never forget. It was the best Christmas ever. I enjoy Christmas 2020!!

My 2021 so far!!

My 2021 so far as been amazing!! Two weddings that I was apart of and I wouldn't trade it for the world. My 2021 has been so amazing so far. I am so happy to be apart of two weddings for the people that I love. On March 27th, my dad and my stepmom got married. That was the best day ever! I love my stepmom more than anything. She has been there for me since the day that I could remember. She has been like a mom to me and she showed me what a mother and daughter relationship looks like. I felt so much love from her. She is an amazing woman for my dad and she makes him happy. On May 8th, my big sister also got married. I love my big sister so much. She is my rock and a mother figure to me. Seeing her walking down the isle and looking all gorgeous made me happy. She deserves so much happiness in her life and I am glad to see her happy. I loved being apart of these weddings. They were absolutely amazing and I am happy for my dad and my sister. I love them both so much.

In Conclusion! 

In conclusion, my life has been crazy! I went through a lot in my life but I got stronger because I have support from my family and friends. I have people who love me for me. I am blessed to have amazing support system. I went through obstacles and I had to jump through hoops to get through what I have been through. I had doctors tell my parents that I wouldn't read on my own or tie my own shoes. I proved everyone wrong including myself. There is a quote by Min Yoongi from BTS and it says "Yes, Look Down On Me Like That. It's My Hobby To Prove You Wrong."-Min Yoongi. I love that quote because yes! I had to prove people wrong throughout my life and I had people look down on me but guess what? I proved my haters wrong and I am proud of myself for proving people wrong. When life got hard, I kept trying and pushing through because I couldn't give up. Giving up isn't in my blood. I am here to give up on life. I am here to push through life for the people who love me for who I am and who accept me for who I am. I love who I am because I love myself. I will always love myself. Whatever you are going through, there are people here for you because you are an amazing person. Never change who you are. 

I love y'all and stay amazing!! 

Brandee is out! See u at my next blog!!