How do I feel about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary on Saturday? blog by: Brandee Marie Darden!!

                                        🩷Blog: How do I feel about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary on Saturday? Blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Friday, October 31st, 2025!! This blog episode is dedicated to my fiancé who is my rock and my love! I love you, babe! 💙 

Intro to my blog!! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and welcome back to an all new weekly blog episode where I talk about anything that comes to mind whether it is about an important date or a poem of mine, whatever it is, I will talk about it! How are y'all doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing okay and well! Whatever y'all are going through, just know that I love y'all and I am always here for y'all, no matter what! Happy Friday or in other countries, Happy Saturday!! Who is ready for an all new blog episode for today? I know that I am but 1st, a blog recap from Wednesday's blog episode! On Wednesday, I talked about why do I stay quiet at times? One of the reasons why I stay quiet at times is because I will have days where I am just tired! If I didn't have my morning coffee or even a nap, chances are I am exhausted and I'm tired!! Want to know more about this blog episode? Link right here: →Why do I stay quiet?←Link right here! Please, go check it out whenever y'all can! Please! Thank you all so much!! For today's blog episode, I will be talking about how do I feel about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary on Saturday? This blog episode is dedicated to my fiancé who is my rock and my love! I love you, babe! On this blog episode, I will be talking about if I could describe my feelings about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary being on Saturday, how would I describe it? Why would I describe it like that? What am I looking forward to the next year or so? Why am I looking forward to the next year? Now, with that being said, let's get this blog episode started! Shall we? We shall! Also, Happy Halloween! Please, be safe and have a wonderful Halloween!! 

What is one memory that happened this year that stood out to me? Why did that memory stood out to me? 

What are some memories that happened this year that stood out to me? One of the memories that stood out to me is our engagement! To this day, I cannot believe that our engagement happened and I will forever remember that day!! That day will stick out in my head forever!! It was the best day of my life and I am looking forward to be spending the rest of my life with him!! I can't wait to spend forever with him!! Why did that memory stood out to me? The reason why that memory in particular stood out to me the most is because I never thought that day would happen and I never thought it would happened on my birthday weekend but it happened and I am forever blessed!! It was a day that I would never forget!! It was special to me and I'm happy!! 

My feelings!! 

If I could describe my feelings about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary being on Saturday, how would I describe it? If I could describe my feelings about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary being on Saturday, I could describe it as me having mixed feelings! I am happy but also proud of us where we are at today! I am happy because he makes me happy but I am also proud of us because we are engaged and we are also planning a wedding as well!! To think that we are in this stage of life is very incredible! I am also proud of us because we have been through so much! We have dealt with every obstacle that came our way and I love that for us!! 

Why? 

Why would I describe it like that? The reason why I would describe it as mixed is because I'm happy because I found the person who loves and accepts me for who I am! It took me awhile to find a person who accepts me for me! I was this young lady who loved Kpop music and to this day, I still do and I got out of a year long relationship and I was scared that I would never find someone who would love me but I finally did and I am so happy! The other emotion that I am feeling is proud is because we have conquered through so much in our life! We have jumped through every obstacle in our life!! No matter what kind of obstacle we faced, we never gave up so easily! We pushed through and we got this!! To think where we are at today is indescribable! Here we are almost 3 years later, engaged and planning a wedding and getting ready to start a new chapter of life!! I'm happy and super excited! 

The next year? 

Wham I looking forward to the next year or so? I think what I am looking forward to the next year or so is continuing to plan our wedding and to have a place that we can call "home". I think I am ready to be with him forever and ready to start a new chapter of life together! I am ready to be with my best friend and to enjoy life with him!! I am looking forward to be with the person who makes me so happy!! I can't wait to be with him forever and to be together as well! I am looking forward to be making new memories with him! I am also excited to make new memories with him as well! 

Why?

Why am I looking forward to the next year? I think the reason why I am looking forward to the next year or so is because I can't wait to make new memories and can't wait to see what the next chapter brings for us! I am excited to see what we do next as a couple who loves serving the Lord together and I can't wait to see how the Lord is going to bless us in so many ways as not just a couple but also two individuals who love to serve the Lord as well! I am looking forward to make new memories as well! I am excited and happy at the same time!! 

In closing/ My advice!! 

In closing, as we are getting close to our 3 year dating anniversary, I am very blessed where we are at today! We have conquered a lot together and I am proud of where we are at today!! We have people in his life who have been supporting us and I am very blessed for that! I am very blessed for the people who are in my life who have been supporting us as well! It took awhile for to find someone who can make me happy but I did! For me, if I could describe someone to be my forever person, it would definitely be my fiancé because he makes me so happy!! I am finally happy because I am with the person who loves me for who I am and I am forever grateful for that! Here is my advice for the day! My advice for the day is Find someone who can make you happy because once you find that person who can make you happy, never lose that person because finding that person who makes you happy can be difficult at times! Find your forever person! I love y'all so much!! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and y'all just reached the end of today's blog episode for today! The moral of this blog episode for today is find someone who makes you happy because once you find someone who makes you happy, you don't lose that person because you are never going to find another person like that! It is hard to find someone who can make you happy and once you find that person, keep him or her!! It took me a while to find a person who can make me happy but I did it! I am so blessed to find a person who can make me happy! I am blessed on where we are at today! I never want to stop loving him because of how happy he makes me!! For today's quote of the day, it is by Lauren Fortenberry and it says "And she found her peace in prayer. Because anxiety would not overtake her. When God was the anchor of her life. And His steadfast hands held her. And never let go". -Lauren Fortenberry. When you pray, your anxiety goes away because having faith in God knowing he is going to let it all go is the most amazing thing in the world! Having faith that God would take care of everything is a good feeling!! Trust what God is doing for your life! I love y'all and so does Jesus and let's have a good day or had a good day! Always remember to "Dream Big! Don't ever give up on your dreams" and stay tuned for next week's blog episodes where I will be talking about on my 2nd blog page- I will be talking about analyzing the song "Stars" by: Anne Wilson, blog by: Brandee Marie Darden, why you shouldn't underestimate me, and my poem "Who I am". Stay tuned and until next time, Blogger Queen is out! Hugs and love! 🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨

Today's Quote of the day!! When you have found peace in that prayer, God is moving mountains and he doesn't the anxiety take over you because when anxiety takes over you, it's hard to shake it over! Trust what God is doing for you and how he is moving mountains for you!! 

Edit 1 that I did for us a while back! The 1st picture was from our engagement, 2nd picture on the top was from our 1st date, the bottom left picture was when we 1st met last year, and 2nd bottom right picture was our 1st Sunday together!!

My 2nd edit that I did from our engagement and our first date photo!! I absolutely love these two pictures a lot!! These are memories that I am not going to forget from this year!! 

The 3rd edit that I did!! The 1st two on top are from our engagement and the other two are from our 1st date!! That night was incredibly special!! We were happy that night!! From promise ring to engagement ring!! 

To end today's blog episode, here is this week's song of the week which is "Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi! Every time I listen to this song, my mind always reverts to my fiancé because I can be free around him and I can be who I am when I am around him!! I love y'all so does Jesus and let's don't forget to share how amazing God's love and how cool Jesus is today and let's love like Jesus not just today but everyday! I love y'all! ❤❤❤


 


 

Blog: Why do I stay quiet at times? blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Wednesday, 10-29-25!!

                                          🫢  Blog: Why do I stay quiet at times? blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Wednesday, 10-29-25!! This blog episode is dedicated to the ones who stay quiet and don't have a lot to say! This blog episode is for y'all! 🫢 

Intro to my blog!! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and welcome back to an all new weekly blog episode for the day where I talk about anything that is on my mind! How are y'all doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing okay and well! Whatever y'all are going through, just know that I am always here for y'all, no matter what! Happy Wednesday or in other countries, Happy Thursday! Who is ready for an all new blog episode for the day? I hope y'all are because y'all better buckle up and fastened your seatbelts because it is going to be a bumpy ride but 1st, a blog recap! On Monday- I analyzed a song called "Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi, blog by: Brandee Marie Darden, this song is from the Netflix movie called "Kpop Demon Hunters". When I listen to this song, I think what comes to mind is how safe and free to have people who will make you feel safe and free! You don't have to "pretend" to be anyone else around those people!! Want to know more about this blog episode? I will leave the link right here: →"Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi, blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! ← Link right here! I hope everyone will enjoy! For today's blog episode, I will be talking about why do I stay quiet? This blog episode is dedicated to the ones who stay quiet and don't have a lot to say! This blog episode is for y'all! In this blog episode, I will be talking about what are 3 reasons why I stay quiet at times? Why are those my reasons to stay quiet at times? If someone sees me quiet, what should they do? Why should they do that thing? With that being said, let's get this blog episode started! Shall we? We shall! 

How could I define the word "quiet"? Why do I define the word "quiet" like that? 

How could I define the word "quiet"? If I could define the word "quiet", how would I define it? The way that I could define the word "quiet" is someone who doesn't talk much and they stay quiet a lot of times! They might not have a lot to say or they do have a lot to say but they don't want to bother anyone with their thoughts, so they stay quiet a lot of times! I know people who are quiet! They want to say something, but people kept interrupting them and that's sad!! Why do I define the word "quiet" like that? The reason why I would define the word "quiet" like that is because people tend to stay quiet and there are people who won't have a lot to say or they do, but they don't want to verbalize that or they don't want to say anything and that that's hard! When you want to speak, but you can't say anything or get a word in and that's hard!! 

3 reasons why I am quiet? 

What are 3 reasons why I stay quiet at times? The 1st reason why I stay quiet at times is because there are times where I am tired! I will have days where I didn't have my nap and I will stare into blank space and I want to go to sleep!! If I didn't have my cup of coffee that day, I am also tired!!  The 2nd reason why I stay quiet at times is because I don't feel like talking! I will have moments where I don't want to talk and if I don't want to talk, don't make me talk!! I will have moments where I just want to stay quiet and I am okay with staying quiet!! The 3rd and final reason why I stay quiet at times is because I will tried to talk but people will talk over me and that's hard for me, so that's why I don't talk much! There would be times where I can't get a word in but I guess I am okay with that! That's why I am not really good with group chats!! If I try to talk, people will talk over me, so I stay silent!! 

Why?

Why are those my reasons to stay quiet at times? The 1st reason why I am quiet is because I am tired and the reason why I am tired is because there will be times where I would get so busy with my blogging to the point where I don't have my nap or morning coffee and there are times where I just want to go to bed early and I am okay with that!! I am okay being this person who wants to read her Bible and then, get to bed a little early! I'm fine with that!! The 2nd reason why I am quiet is because I don't feel like talking and the reason why I don't talking is because there are times where I don't have a lot to say and I am okay with that! I am okay with not having a lot to say because I love being quiet!! The 3rd and final reason why I am quiet is because I will tried to talk but people will talk over me and the reason why I stay quiet is because I am not the person who will try to interrupt that person and if I try to, I feel guilty for doing that and I never want to interrupt a person while they are talking! I try not to interrupt a person because it's rude but people doing to me a lot but that's okay because I'm used to it!! 

Sees me quiet?

If someone sees me quiet, what should they do? If a person sees me quiet, they should let me stay quiet unless I want to talk to that person! For me, if a person comes up to me, I will speak to them! I am a shy person at 1st but if you talk to me, I will speak! If I try to go up to a person, I tend to get nervous and I tend to stay shy!! If I am comfortable around you, it means I will talk with you but if I am not comfortable around a person, then it is going to take time for me to open up!! 

Why?

Why should they do that thing? The reason why that person should let me stay quiet unless I want to talk to that person is because it takes time for me to open up! It took a while to open up to my fiancé because I was scared to scare him off with my past or if I would talk too much!! People would say I would either talk too much or too little but it would never be enough!! For me, I don't mind talking but if I tried to talk, I would get interrupted and that would be hard for me, so I stayed silent a lot of times!! 

In closing/ Tip of the day!!  

In closing, I feel like people always wonder I don't talk much and the reason why I don't a lot is because I am either tired or don't feel like talking or if I tried to talk, people tend to talk over me and that's why I tend to stay to myself a lot which I don't mind at all! There are times where me and fiancé would be talking and I would be talking to him but he interrupts me at times and that bugs me so much and I don't like when people do that because if I want to say something, let me something! Don't interrupt me!! Here is my tip of the day: My tip of the day is when I am talking or if you are talking to someone, let them speak 1st and then, you can speak because when you try speak over that person, you are interrupting that person and they tend to lose their train of thought and half the time, that's what happens to me as well! Don't interrupt a person while they speak because that's rude!! I love y'all! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen here and y'all just reached the end of today's blog episode for the day! The moral of this blog episode is when you see me quiet, don't talk to me unless I am comfortable talking to you because it might take awhile for to open up! I could sit by myself, not talk to anyone unless they talk to me! If you talk to me 1st, then that's fine because I am willing to talk to you! I am pretty shy at 1st but once I open up, I am okay after that!! Have patience with me!! My quote of the day is by Lauren Fortenberry and it goes something like this: "And she learned to trust again. God would cover her in His grace. God would lead her to His goodness. And never would she face a day without His strength". -Lauren Fortenberry. With God, you can trust him and when you are cover in his grace, he will lead you on the right path of life! His strength is stronger than you think!! God will teach you how trust again because every person is different!! I love y'all and so does Jesus and stay tuned for Friday's blog episode where I will be talking about how do I feel about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary on Saturday? Stay tuned for that blog post and with that being said, this blogger is out! Happy Wednesday or in other countries, Happy Thursday! Always remember to "Dream Big! Don't give up on your dreams" and let's show the world how amazing God's love is and how cool Jesus is today! Let's love like Jesus not just today, but everyday!! I love y'all and this Blogger Queen is out! Hugs and love- Blogger Queen! ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ 

Today's quote of the day! It takes time to trust and when you have trust in God, you trust him with his grace and his goodness that he has because God's goodness is so good and he will give you strength from day to day! Always trust in God because his knows what is best for you!! 

"Staying quiet
doesn't mean I have 
nothing to say, it means 
I don't think you're 
ready to hear my 
thoughts". 
-Unknown. If you see me, chances are I do have a lot to say but I don't you are ready to hear those thoughts because once I pour out my heart to you, it is going to be overflowed and I don't think you are ready for that!! Just saying!! 

"Notice Everything. 
Stay quiet". 
-Unknown. I notice everything but I stay quiet a lot of times! I am an observant person! I will observe but I will stay quiet! If I notice a person is sad, I will just go up to them and give them a hug because that's what they need!!! 

"Just Because 
I'm Not Talking, 
Doesn't Mean 
I'm In A Bad Mood.
Sometimes I Just 
Like To Be Quiet". 
-Unknown. If you don't see talking, I am not in a bad mood! My face might look like it, but deep down, I am not in a bad mood! I am either quiet or I'm tired but if you get into a bad mood, chances are you will feel the wrath of my anger! Just letting you know! Ask my fiancé! He can tell you!! 

I love y'all from the bottom of my heart and I pray that everyone will have a good day or had a good day! Share God's love wherever you go because people might need it and I pray that you can a light to that person! I love y'all! ✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷

Blog: Analyzing the song "Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi, blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Monday, 10/27/25!!

                                         💗✨  Blog: Analyzing the song "Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi, blog by Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Monday, 10/27/25!! This blog episode is dedicated to anyone who can be free around someone that they love! This blog episode is for y'all!! ✨💗 

Intro to my blog!! 

Well, hello my lovely and wonderful Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and welcome back to an all new weekly blog episode where I talk about anything that comes to mind!! How are y'all doing today on this Monday? I hope and pray that everyone is doing okay and well! Whatever y'all are going through or whatever got y'all in a funk, just know that God can get you out of that funk and God will lead you on the right path!! Happy Monday or in other countries, Happy Tuesday!! Who is ready for an all new blog episode for today? I know that I am but 1st, a blog recap from last week but before I get into last week's blog episodes, I want to thank every Blogger from the bottom of my heart who takes the time out of their time to read my blogs! Your love and support means so much to me and want to thank you from the bottom of my heart! I love y'all so much!! Now, on Monday- I talked about what 3 things make me happy? I can think about a lot of things that can make me happy but one of the things that do make me happy is talking to my fiancé! When I talk to my fiancé, I feel happy and I can be myself!! On Wednesday, I talked about what are things that make it hard to trust people? I think one of the things that it makes hard to trust people is less communication! When you and that person don't communicate, it boils over and that is never good! Always communicate!! On Friday, I talked about what 3 things keep me going? One of the things that keeps me going is my relationship with God! When I trusted God, my life changed! God will do that! God will take your troubles away! Want to know more about last week's blog episodes? Link right here: →2nd blog page! ←Link right here!! For this week's song of the week, I will be talking about Analyzing the song "Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi, blog by: Brandee Marie Darden, why do I stay quiet at times, and how do I feel about me and my fiancé's 3 year dating anniversary on Saturday? Stay tuned for this week's blog episodes and with that being said, let's get this blog episode started! Shall we? We shall!  

Talking about today's blog episode! Why did I chose to talk about today's blog episode? What is this week's song of the week? Why did I chose this song of the week? 

For today's blog episode, I will be analyzing the song "Free" from the Netflix show "Kpop Demon hunters", by: Ejae and Andrew Choi, blog by: Brandee Marie Darden!! This blog is dedicated to anyone can be free around someone that they love! This blog episode is for y'all!! In this blog episode, I will be talking about when I listen to this song, what comes to mind? Why does that thing come to mind like that? When I listen to this song, who does this song remind me of? Why does this song remind me of that person? Why did I chose to talk about today's blog episode? The reason why I chose this blog episode because we should be free around people who makes feel safe and secure and if we don't have that type of person in our life, then our guard is up and we are seeking for that type of a person in our life and we shouldn't have to go through that!! What is this week's song of the week? For this week's song of the week. I chose "Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi! I love how these two have a powerful voice with one another and how wonderful they sing with each other! It's powerful and amazing! Why did I chose this song of the week? I chose this song because every time I listen to this song, it makes me think about a special person which I will be talking about later in the blog! Having that person who makes me you feel free is a special thing!! 

Talking about the lyrics! When I think about the lyrics, what comes to mind? Why does that come to mind? 

This year, Netflix came out with a show called "Kpop Demon Hunters" and there is a song called "Free" and the lyrics go something like this: "But here with you, I 

can finally breathe

You say you're no 

good, but you're 

good for me". When I think about the lyrics, what comes to mind? When I think about these lyrics, I think about how a person can tell you that they are not good for you, but in your mind, they are good for you and there is nothing that can changing your mind! When you find a person who makes you feel loved and cared for and free, nothing can change your mind and I love that!! Why does that come to mind? The reason why it came to mind like that is because sometimes a person will tell you that "I'm not good enough for you" or "My past might run you away", but that person sticks around and I love that so much!! 

When I listen to this song...

When I listen to this song, what comes to mind? When I listen to this song, I think what comes to mind is I think about the people who makes me feel safe and free with! When I listen to this song, I think about the people makes me feel the safest and free! When I surround myself with people who makes me feel free and safe, I feel like I don't have to pretend to be anyone else! I don't have to pretend to be the person that I am not and that feels good to me! It feels good to know that I don't have to pretend to be anyone else around the ones who makes me feel safe!! 

Why?

Why does that thing come to mind like that? The reason why it comes to mind like that is because there are people out who wants me to be the same as them but there are people out there who wants me to different and wants me to be who I was supposed to be, not the complete opposite! To know that I don't have to pretend to be anyone else and I can be free with certain people, it feels amazing and I love that feeling!! I love being around people who makes me feel free and I can be myself!! 

Who?

When I listen to this song, who does this song remind me of? When I listen to this song, the 1st person that comes to mind is my fiancé! When I listen to this song, I always think about my fiancé! When I am around him, I don't have to be anyone else! I don't have to pretend to be a different person! I can act totally goofy and he loves it! I can be funny when I am tired and he still loves me and I love that! When I listen to this song, the 2nd person that comes to mind is my family slash my parents! When I am around like my siblings or my parents or my bonus family, I can also be myself which is also freeing! I don't have to be anyone else and it feels good to know that I can be myself! When I listen to this song, the 3rd and final person that comes to mind is my church family!! I don't have to pretend to someone different and it is freeing to know that I can be myself around my church family!! I can be funny around them and they still love me!! It feels good to know that I can be myself and I don't get judged!! 

Why?

Why does this song remind me of that person? The 1st person that this song reminds of and that person is my fiancé and the reason why this song reminds me of my fiancé is because when I am around him or I talk to him, I don't have to hide who I am!! I can laugh or act goofy and I love that!! The 2nd person that this song reminds of and that person is my family slash my parents and the reason why this song reminds me of my family and parents is because when I am around certain family members or my parents, I can act like my goofy self and I love that for me because when I act goofy, I act goofy and I love that for me!! The 3rd and final person that this song reminds me of my church family and the reason why this song reminds me of my church family is because when we have our fifth Sunday sing, my Sunday school teacher likes to pick on me or even my pastor likes to pick on me!! I love my church family so much! I can be who I am without being ashamed of who I am! I can act goofy when I am around them and I am not afraid to be that way!! 

In closing/ Tip of the day! 

In closing, when I am around people who don't make me feel "safe" or I can't be myself around them, it kind hurts because you are putting me in bubble of I can't be myself and I have to pretend to be someone else and I shouldn't have to be anyone else or walk around egg shells to pretend to who I am but when I am around certain family members or talking to my fiancé, I don't have to pretend to be who I am because I have people who love me for who I am and that's great for me! My bonus family knows that I love Kpop and that's okay! They don't tease me for that! Here is my tip of the day: My tip of the day is don't pretend to be someone else that you are not meant to be because if the person don't love the way you are, then how they can tolerate you when you act funny or be silly? Don't be someone that you are not! I love y'all and have a good day! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here to remind everyone that y'all just reached the end of today's blog episode for the day! The moral of this blog episode is don't be afraid to be who you are and find people who accept you for the way you are because once you find those people, it is hard to find other people who are the same way! I struggled for a long time to find people who will accept me for who I am but now, I don't have hide who I am because the ones who do know me, they love who I am and I am okay with that! I know very few people have seen my goofy side but I really do have a goofy side! I love who I am and it is freeing to be around people who are accepting and not judgmental! I can show up at church with a dress with tennis shoes and they can say "I love your outfit, Brandee". I am proud of who I am! My bonus mom knew that I love Kpop music and she accepts me for who I am! My dad knows I love Kpop music and he stills loves me!! For today's quote of the day, it is by Lauren Fortenberry and it says "And one day she had to let go of the stress. God did not make her to worry in the waiting. God did not make her to be overwhelmed by everything that came her way. And surrendering to her Savior saved her heart". -Lauren Fortenberry. When I think about things that overwhelm me or give that worrisome feeling, let it go and give to God because I know he is going to handle it at the end of the day! I can trust him knowing that I don't have to stress about anything that comes my way and it is the best feeling ever! I love y'all and so does Jesus and stay tuned for Wednesday's blog episode where I talk about why do I stay quiet at times? Stay tuned and I love y'all! Always remember to "Dream Big! Don't give up on your dreams"! Let's share the love of God wherever we go and let's share how cool Jesus is today! Let's love like Jesus not just today but everyday! I love y'all and this Blogger Queen is out! Hugs and love, Blogger Queen! 🩷🩷🩷

Today's quote of the day by Lauren Fortenberry! I don't have to worry about anything because I know that God is going to handle it! I don't have to feel overwhelmed with everything that hits my way because God is taking care of it!! God has my back and I trust my God!! 

Lyrics to "Free" by: Ejae and Andrew Choi or their characters are Rumi and Jinu! When I think about these lyrics, I think about how sometimes, I feel like I am not good enough for people in my life but they tell me that I am and it feels good to know that I am good enough for them!! 

"Love in such 
a way that the 
person you
love feels 
free". 
-Thich Nhat Hanh. When you get into a relationship, you want that person to feel love like the way you feel loved and you want to be who you are and free. Be who you are by loving a person without being afraid of loving them!! 

"You must love in such a 
way that the person you 
love feels free". 
-Thich Nhat Hanh. When you are in love, you don' to be in a relationship where you can't be free to be who you are. You want to be loved the same way! Love should be freeing and if is not like that, then walk away from the relationship!!

To end today's blog episode for the day, here is this week's song of the week: For this week's song of the week, I chose "Free" by: Rumi played by Ejae and Jinu played Andrew Choi which are characters in the movie "Kpop Demon Hunters". When I listen to this song, I think about how people's love can set me free because I don't fake being who I am! I can be free and be who I am because I shouldn't have to be afraid to be who I am! I love y'all and so does Jesus and have a good day! I love y'all! 🩷🩷🩷
 

 

Blog: Where am I at today? by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Friday, 10/10/25!! 🩷💜🩷💜🩷💜

                                         💛🧡 Blog: Where am I at today? blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Friday, 10/10/25!! Blog episode is dedicated to anyone who knows my story and who has been there for me in the beginning! Thank you! ✨💖

Intro to my blog!! 

Hello, my amazing Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and welcome back to an all new weekly blog episode where I talk about anything that comes to mind whether it is about certain topics like where am I at today or even bullying! How are y'all doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing okay and well! Wherever y'all might be dealing with, just know that I am always here for y'all, no matter what!! Happy Friday or in other countries, Happy Saturday!! Who is ready for an all new blog episode for today? I know that I am but 1st, here is Wednesday's blog episode in a recap!! On Wednesday, I talked about why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? One the reasons why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life is of our mental health! If we continue to beg that person to stay in our life, our mental health will go down like the Titanic and that's not good at all! Your mental health is important!! Want to know more about this blog episode? Link right here: →Why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? ←Link right here! Please, go check it out whenever y'all can! Please! Thank you all so much!! For today's blog episode for today, I will be talking about where am I at today? This blog episode is dedicated to anyone who knows my story and who has been there for me in the beginning! Thank you! In this blog episode, I will be talking about if I could describe where I am at today, how would I describe it? Why would I describe where am I at today? Who I am today? Why am I the way am today? What is my advice to anyone who might be struggling today? Why would I give that advice to anyone who is struggling today? Want to know more about this blog episode? Well, you are in luck because buckle up because you are in for a treat! Stay tuned for this blog episode and with that being said, let's get this blog episode started! Shall we? We shall! 

Who I was before in my past? Why was I like that in my past?

Who I was before in my past? In my past, I wasn't happy and I had the outside world putting me down and I was dealing with suicidal thoughts! I wanted to kill myself so much!! I couldn't deal with it anymore and it was getting the best of me!! I couldn't stand the fact that I was living!! Why was I like that in my past? The reason why I was like that in my past is because I couldn't stand the fact that people who are leaving me and I couldn't stand that I was living and I wanted to die so much!! I hated the things that was putting me down and I had to deal with the negative thoughts in my head!! It was hard!! 

Where?

If I could describe where am I at today, how would I describe it? If I could describe where I am at today, I would describe it as a strong woman who loves reading the word of God and who loves God so much! Without God, I don't know where I will be at today! I am giving him all the glory!! God deserves all the glory!! I am proud of where I am at today! I gave my life to Jesus in 2023 and ever since then, my life has changed!! I look at things in a different view! I might not agree with some stuff but I don't judge! I leave the judging to God! I am not in that position to judge!! 

Why? 

Why would I describe where am I today? The reason why I would describe where I am at today which as a strong woman who loves reading the word of God and who loves God so much is because when I get into the word of God and I talk about how much I love God, I am at peace knowing that each morning, God is with me! I know that God each day is going to be a good day because of God is on my side, no matter what! I am in a different headspace than I was years ago! If I even think negatively about myself, I would rebuke it in the name of Jesus because I will not Satan get me and drag me through the mud!! I have so much hope for my God that he will not let me drown!! He will give me so much hope and I know when I have hope in him, I know that he will get me through everything!! 

Who? 

Who I am today? The woman that I am today is a woman of God!! I am woman of God who loves God!! I love reading the word of God and I love being who I am today!! I am that woman who loves to stay home and stay to herself! I like to get into her pj's and relax for the reminder of the evening and enjoying some water to keep myself hydrated!! I love to get at 3 in the morning and lay backdown for a little bit until it is time to get back up for 6:45 to work on blog episode or do my tiktok and make her bed! I am not a big partier or drinker!! You can find me in my bed, in my pajamas and drinking some water and enjoying some water and listening to some good Christian music!! That's who I am today! People can judge me all they want to but I don't care! That's who I am and I love who I am!! I love being the person that I am and I am okay being boring!! 

Why? 

Why am I the way I am today? The reason why I am the way I am today is because I gave my life to Christ on Wednesday, March 15th, 2023 and on Sunday, March 26th, 2023, I got baptized and ever since then, I go church, share sermon notes and read the word of God!! I don't care about what the world thinks about me and I don't care who else cares about me! I am not a normal 27 year old who doesn't care about parties or drinking and people might either get mad at me for saying this but I honestly don't care but I am totally against drinking! I am against alcohol and I kind of wish bars wouldn't exist because people are tempted to go to a bar and have a drink or two!! Me on the other hand, I enjoy being at home and reading my Bible and taking notes and praying to God and having some water! People might look at me as "boring" or "not fun", but that's okay! I don't care who looks me at weird!! The only time I don't mind going out is when going to Walmart or to worship my Lord and Savior aka Church but that's it! I don't care about anything else! I am comfortable in my own home and I love getting into my pajamas!! If y'all want to look at me boring, that's cool! I don't care!! I am happy because that is who I am today!! 

My advice! 

What is my advice to anyone who might be struggling today? To any of my Blogger Dreamers who are struggling, my advice to y'all is don't give up! I remember struggling with a lot of things in my life and I felt like giving up on my life but I reminded myself that we serve an all mighty God who loves me and who is going to be there for me, no matter what! Whatever you are going through, I rebuke it in the name of Jesus and that you are much stronger than that! You are loved by people who will help you through it, no matter what! Don't give up!! 

Why?

Why would I give that advice to anyone who is struggling today? The reason why I would give that advice to my Blogger Dreamers who is struggling today or might be struggling today is because I hate watching the people who I love struggle because I remember struggling at times where I wanted to give up on my life but I had to remember that I have people who absolutely love me and at the time, we have a good and an almighty God who cares about me! When I got saved, if I can sense someone is struggling, I want to pray over them because I don't want them to go through anything alone and I want to remind anyone if y'all need someone to talk to, I am here to listen and I will take the time out of my time to pray over y'all because I know that God will use me that way!! God can use me in a mighty way and I know that and if I can be an encouragement to someone, let me be an encouragement to someone!! I want God to use me as an encouragement to someone!! 

In closing/ Encouragement for the day!! 

In closing, seeing where I am at today and who I am today vs the old me and where I used to be is a big and huge difference!! Before, I would think about myself in a negative stand point and now, if a negative thought ever ran my mind, I would rebuke in the name of Jesus because I know that God is going to rebuke it away from me!! I know that I might sound boring but at the end of the day, I love relaxing and I love being in the word of God!! I love listening to music that doesn't focus on the world!! I am different and I am okay with that! People want to look at me weird and strangely, go ahead! I don't care!! I love who I am! Here is today's encouragement for the day: My encouragement for the day is Be who you are and don't be ashamed to be who you are because God made you the way you are and you should be proud of the person who you are!! I love y'all!! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and y'all just reached the end of today's blog episode for the day! The moral of this blog is I am proud of where I am today because without God, I don't where I would be at, to be honest with y'all! I have conquered a lot and I got through it!! I am proud of who I am today! I love being who I am because of God! I give glory to God because he never left me even when I didn't know who he was or how he would change my life and I am so blessed that he changed my life for the better!! I have seen my life change in a blink of an eye and I am happy where I am at today!! For today's Bible Verses of the day, they are taken from Isaiah 43:18-19 and it says "Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert". I love this so much because we shouldn't remember the old things and we need to focus on the new things in life! When we become a child of God, we need to focus on the new mindset that we have, instead of the old things!! I love y'all from the bottom of my heart and stay tuned for new blogs next week on my makeup and fashion blog page where I will be talking about what kind of outfits would I wear for fall, part 2, what kind of makeup looks would I wear for fall, part 2, and what kind of outfits would I wear with my headband that I made! Stay tuned for that and I love y'all and so does Jesus! Let's show the whole world how amazing God's love is and how cool Jesus is today and let's love Jesus today and not just today, but everyday and this Blogger Queen is out! Hugs and love, Blogger Queen!! ❤❤❤❤💕💕💕💕

Today's Bible Verses of the day!! We need to take our minds off the old things and focus on the new things that are in front of us!! God will make a way for us! We need to trust his way!! 

Selfie #1- This is what smiling looks like!! This is what being happy is all about!! 

Selfie #2- I am happy with how life is going for me!! I love how God is moving in my life!!! 

Selfie #3- I might go through pain every once in a while, but God has a way in my life and I am blessed where I am today because of God!! 

My tiktok that I did about where am I at today? I am proud of where I am today!! 

To end today's blog episode, here is this week's song of the week: "Even when you're running" by: Casting Crowns!! Don't run from God because God's love is loveable and he will love you forever and always! Don't run away from God's love! I love y'all and so does Jesus and I will see y'all on the next blog episode!! 💕💕💕💕

 

Blog: Why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Wednesday, 10/8/25!!

                                       💔 💔 Blog: Why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Wednesday, 10/8/25!! This blog episode is dedicated to anyone who is tired of begging people to be in their lives! This blog episode is for y'all! 🥺🥺 

Intro to my blog!! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and welcome back to an all new weekly blog episode for the day where I talk about anything from my poems to anything that comes to mind! How are y'all doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing okay and well! Whatever y'all are going through, I am always here for y'all to listen, no matter what! Happy Wednesday or in other countries, Happy Thursday!! Who is ready for an all new blog episode for today? I know that I am but 1st, a blog recap of the day! On Monday, I talked about my suicide attempt story!! For my Blogger Dreamers who are new to my blogging journey, I tried to commit suicide in 2018 and that was hard for me! I didn't want to live anymore but I'm glad that I'm here today to tell my story!! Want to know more about this blog episode? Link right here: →My suicide attempt story!! ←Link right here!! For today's blog episode, I will be talking about why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? This blog episode is dedicated to anyone who is tired of begging people to be in their lives!! This blog episode is for y'all!! In this blog episode, I will be talking about what are 3 reasons to not beg people to stay in our life? Why are those the 3 reasons not to beg people to stay in our life? Out of those 3 reasons, what is the number one reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? Why is that number 1? Without any further ado, let's get this blog episode started! Shall we? We shall! 

What is my reasoning why am I tired of people coming in and out of my life? Why is that my reasoning? 

What is my reasoning why am I tired of people coming in and out of my life? My reasoning why am I tired of people coming in and out of my life is I am tired of my mental health draining me and I am tired of people just coming as they please! If you are going to support me and love me through everything, stay in my life! Don't make me beg for my life!! Why is that my reasoning? The reasoning why am I tired of people coming in and out of my life is because my mental health is draining me and I am so sick of it! I am tired of hearing from people and then, not hearing from them! I am so sick of it! Why should I watch people walk away from my life? Don't do that to me!! Please, stay in my life!! Don't walk away but if you want to walk away, do it while I am looking away!! 

3 reasons!! 

What are 3 reasons to not to beg people to stay in our life? The 1st reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our lives is of our mental health! If we beg people to stay in our lives, our mental health begins to decline and that's not good for us at all!! The 2nd reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our lives is people could be toxic to us! People could be toxic to us and bring us down like the titanic and that's not good at all! The 3rd and final reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our lives is the environment that they are in!! Whatever environment they are in, they could bring you down with it and that's not good! If someone is in a toxic environment, they are going to be around toxic people! If someone is in a positive  environment, they are going to be in a positive environment!! Don't beg people who are in a toxic environment!! 

Why?

Why are those the 3 reasons not to beg people to stay in our life? The 1st reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our lives is of our mental health and the reason why is because our mental can decline and that is not good for us at all! If we beg people to stay in our lives, our mental health would be at state and we need to be careful!! The 2nd reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our lives is people could be toxic to us and the reason why we shouldn't beg them to stay is because they could bring negative vibes to our lives and we don't need that in our lives! We need people who are positive and who will light up our world!! The 3rd and final reason why we shouldn't beg to stay in our lives is the environment that they are in and the reason why I say that is because when you are around people who are in a toxic environment, they could easily influence you in a negative way and they could tell you something that is out of your character but when you are around someone who is positive, they can influence you in a positive way and I would rather be someone who is a positive influence than a negative influence! I'm just saying!! 

Number 1 reason! 

Out of those 3 reasons, what is the number one reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? In my opinion, I think the number one reason why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life is of our mental health! Our mental health can drain us so quickly and so fast to the point where we are not thinking clearly anymore! We are so used to the people coming and going as they please and it is not good for us!! We need to stop begging people to stay in our lives and destroying our mental health!! We need to take a stand for our mental health and be around people who is willing to stay in our lives!! 

Why? 

Why is that number 1? The reason why that is number 1 is because when we are begging people to stay in our lives, we are begging people to never leave us but yet, they choose to leave us over and over again and our mental health is getting destroyed day by day and that's not good for us! We need to stop begging people for the sake of our mental health and focus on our mental health! Our mental is important and we need to stop people who is not willing to stay in our life!! If they are not willing to stay in your life, then they are meant to be in your life at all!! 

In closing/ Tip of the day!

In closing, we are begging people not to leave us day in and day out but they choose to leave! When they leave you, they are destroying your mental health and it hurting you so much!! Those people could be toxic for your life! If you are around a toxic person, they are going to destroy you and possibly you could end up like them!! We shouldn't be around people who are in a negative environment because if they are negative environment then, their influences could impact you in a certain way and that's not good at all! You don't want that type of a person who will influence you in a negative way!! Be careful who you are around!! Here is my tip of the day: My tip of the day is stop begging people to be in your life because if they don't want to make the changes in their life to make a positive impact in your life, then they are not good for you at all! I love y'all!! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers!! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here to remind everyone that y'all just reached the end of today's blog episode for the day! The moral of this blog episode is we need to stop begging people to stay in our life because they could be toxic for our well-being or they are just simply not good for us at all and we need to stop being around those people who are too toxic for us! Those people could destroy our mental health and we need to stop begging those people to stay!! Don't let people destroy your mental health!! For today's Bible Verse of the day, it is from Matthew 5:43-44 and it says "Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;". These Bible Verses are relatable today and the reason why I say that is because we need learn how to love our enemy despite what they have done to us! We need love them and pray for them because we don't what they are going through at the moment, so we need to love them unconditionally and be there for them despite them being ugly to us!! I love y'all and so does Jesus! Stay tuned for Friday's blog episode about where I will be talking about where am I at today? Stay tuned for that and until next time, Happy Wednesday or in other countries, Happy Thursday and let's remember to always "dream Big! Don't ever give up on your dreams" and let's share how amazing God's love is and how cool Jesus is today! Let's love like Jesus today and not just today, but everyday!! Hugs and love, Blogger Queen! 💜💜💜

Today's Bible Verses of the day from Matthew 5:43-44! These Bible Verses are still useful today because we need to learn how to love our neighbour and love our enemies as well! They could be hurting us, but we need to pray for them because we don't know what they are going at this very moment in their life so we need to be nice and be there for them!! 

"Give people time. Give people
space. Don't beg anyone to stay. 
Let them roam. What's meant 
for you will always be yours".
-Reyna Biddy. It's okay to give people time or give them space, but it is not okay for you to beg them to stay in your life!! Let them go and live your life!! 

"Stop begging and 
fighting for people
to love you the right 
way. Stop investing 
time in people who 
don't mind if you 
stay or leave".
-Reyna Biddy. Stop investing in people who don't care what you do with your life because if they don't care or don't care about loving you, then they are a waste of time and energy! Stop wasting energy on those people!! 

"I have no energy 
left to beg people to 
stay. The ones who 
want to can stay, rest 
are free to leave". 
-Unknown. When you have no energy for people who are begging for you to let them stay in your life but they continually to do the same thing over and over again, you run out of energy quickly and you don't have time for that! Focus on the people who are willing to be there for you because those are the people who is worth fighting for! Just saying! 

I love y'all from the bottom of heart and please, stay safe out there and love yourself because if people aren't fighting for to stay in their life, then you don't need them! Hugs and love, Blogger Queen! ❤❤❤

 

Blog: My suicide attempt story! Blog by: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Monday, 10/6/25!!

                                          💛 Blog: My suicide attempt story!! Blog: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Monday, 10/6/25!! This blog is for anyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts! You are not alone in this journey! I am here for you! I love y'all!🧡 

Intro to my blog!! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and welcome back to an all new weekly blog episode for the day! How are y'all doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing okay and well! Whatever y'all are going through, just know that I am always here for y'all, no mater what! Happy Monday or in other countries, Happy Tuesday! It's a brand new day of new blog and also a brand new week of new blogs coming your way! Who is ready for today's blog episode for the day? I know that I am but 1st here is a blog recap of last week's blogs: On my 1st blog page: On Monday, I talked how do I want to encourage others through the next months? For me, the way I want to encourage others around me is to remind each person how wonderful and amazing they are because everyone deserves to be encouraged by others and I pray that I can be an encouragement for the upcoming months!! The 2nd blog that I talked about on Wednesday which is my poem called "I will not fear". When I think about the title of my poem, I think about despite of me having fear, I think about how God will take care of me and will guide me through the darkness that I am going through! Whatever you are going through, God is there to take care of you!! The 3rd and final blog that I talked about on Friday which is my other poem called "Long road" by: Brandee Marie Darden! When I think about long road, I think about how God will put so many obstacles in our life and will put us on a long road to our destination but at the end of that journey, it was worth it because we made it that destination of our life!! We may go on a long road call life, but reaching to our destination is worth it! Want to more about this week's blog episodes? Well, you can check them out right here: →2nd blog page!←Link right here! Enjoy them! For this week's blog episodes, I will be talking about my suicide attempt story, why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life, and where am I at today? Stay tuned for this week's blog episodes and with that being said, let's get this blog episode started! Shall we? We shall!

Talking about my blog episode! Why did I choose this topic to talk about? What is this week's song of the week? Why did I choose this song for the week? 

For this week's blog episode, I will be talking about my suicide attempt story! This blog is for anyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts! You are not alone in this journey! I am here for you! I love y'all! In this blog episode, I will be talking about for the people who are new to my blogging journey, what is my suicide attempt story? Why did I try to commit suicide? What caused my suicide attempt? Why did that thing try to cause me to suicide attempt? What is my advice to my Blogger Dreamers who are trying to commit suicide? Why would I give that advice to my Blogger Dreamers? Why did I choose this topic to talk about? I choose this topic to talk about is because people look suicide at a joke when it is not a joke! As the person who almost lost her to suicide, I delt with suicidal thoughts everyday of my life and I didn't know how to tell anyone!! That was hard for me! What is this week's song of the week? For this week's song of the week, I choose "Even when you're running" by: Casting Crowns. When I listen to this song, when I think about how God's love is not escapable and we tend to run away from God's love! Don't run away from God's love! Why did I choose this song for the week? The reason why I choose this song for the week is because we tend to runaway from God's love and we need stop running away from God's love and let God handle us!! 

The word "suicide". When I think about the word "suicide", what comes to mind? Why does it come to mind like that? 

When I think about the word "suicide", I think about how sometimes people want to kill themselves and to me, it is sad to even think about. I was there in my life! When I was at my lowest of my low, I wanted to committed suicide. I didn't have much too live for and I didn't felt love which is totally false but my thoughts were telling me other wise!! Why does it come to mind like that? The reason why it came to mind like that is because people deal with suicide everyday. People struggle with suicidal thoughts and it is hard to deal with everyday. People joke about it and it makes me sick to my stomach! I wish people didn't make a joke about it! I pray that I can be an advocate for anyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts!! I want to be the voice for the voiceless because it is important to be that for someone!! 

My suicide attempt story! 

For the people who are new to my blogging journey, what is my suicide attempt story? To my Blogger Dreamers who are new to my blogging journey, in 2018, I try to commit suicide! I finally had enough of living and so, I wanted to kill myself! I couldn't stand the thought of living anymore! I moved and the year before, I lost two people who I loved the most and I just couldn't stand the thought of living so, in 2018, I wanted to kill myself but my family stopped me and I am glad that they did!! 

Why? 

Why did I try to commit suicide? The reason why I try to commit suicide is because I couldn't stand the thought of living anymore and I couldn't stand the thought of living without the people that I love and and I couldn't stand the thought with the thoughts in my head that would bring me down everyday and those thoughts did!! The suicidal thoughts would constantly bring me down everyday and I was at the point where I had enough and it was rough on me! I didn't know who tell and I felt like I had to keep it to myself and I felt like drained!! I felt like I wasn't good enough and that was rough!! 

The caused my suicide attempt!! 

What caused my suicide attempt? I think what caused my suicide attempt was years of bullying and abandonment issues! I was bullied for years and I had people leave me and abandoned me! I had people say "I am always here for you, no matter what" and when I heard that, I expect you be there for me but if you are going to leave me, then leave me! I need people who will be there for me, no matter what and to me, it was hard watching those people leaving me one minute and then, the next minute, them constantly coming back! It triggers me a lot and to this day, it still triggers me!! 

Why? 

Why did that thing try to cause me to suicide attempt? The reason why years of bullying and abandonment issues caused me to suicide attempt because through out my school years, I was constantly bullied and I felt like I couldn't say anything to anyone because if I try to say anything, it would make me a "snitch" and watching people walking into my life and them walking out of my life, it was hard!! Dealing with suicidal thoughts was killing me as well but I was afraid to tell anyone because I was afraid of being judged and that hurts so much!! To watch people who I thought loved me walking into my life and walking out of my life as they are pleased, it killed me everyday and to this day, it killed me so much!! I can't stand the thought of people walking in and out of life! It hurts me so much!! 

My advice! 

What is my advice to my Blogger Dreamers who are trying to commit suicide? To my Blogger Dreamers who are dealing with suicidal thoughts, my advice is you are worthy of love! You are worthy to be loved! It might not feel you are, but you have people who do love you more than anything! God loves you so much and Jesus loves you as well! You are loved by so many people! People care about you so much! I care about you so much!! I am here and I will never leave you!! I love people and I want you here so much! Please, don't leave! Please, stay and we will talk about it!! I am here to listen! I am not here to judge! I will pray over you in the name of Jesus! I love you! Remember that! 

Why? 

Why would I give that advice to my Blogger Dreamers? The reason why I would give that advice to my Blogger Dreamers is because it might feel like you are drowning, but you have people who do care about you and if you don't, then I want to be that person who wants to love you and care about you because I want you to know that I will be at your side when tough times occur and I am willing to listen to you because I don't judge! There are people who will judge you, but I don't and I will never leave you because that's not the person who I am! I love with all my heart and I am willing to love you and pray over you in the name of Jesus!! I care about you and I want you here, more than anything in this world! Don't leave!! 

In closing/ Monday motivation! 

In closing, in 2018, I try to commit suicide and for me, that was absolutely the hardest moment of my life! A part wanted to be here but another part of me wanted to leave because of years of hurt from the bullying and the abandonment issues, that was hard to deal with and to this day, I am still dealing with that because every time I get close with people, I am afraid of them leaving me and that to me is so hard because if those people don't want to stay by my side when things are the hardest and be there for me when things are good, then I don't need that person anymore in my life! I am in my late 20s  and engaged and if you don't want to be apart of the most important part of my life, then you can leave! I can honestly say that I don't care! I am going to focus on people who do you love me and care about me!! I am not going to stand here and watch you leave out of thin air! I'm sorry but I have things to do for my life and I want to conquer things that God wants me to do!! Here is my Monday motivation to motivate my Blogger Dreamers: for Monday's motivation, it is if you see someone struggling, leave them a note! It will help them and encourage them so much!! Be that listening ear for that person because we need more people like that in this world! We need to be an encourager!! Let's motivate people today! I love y'all! 

Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here to remind everyone that y'all just reached the end of today's blog episode for the day! I pray that this blog episode touched y'all's hearts! I know for me, it was hard to talk about because for me, it hurt me so much when I felt like I was at rock bottom of my life and I didn't feel like I belonged in this world but now, I have a new purpose in life and I pray that I can be a light to someone who might feel the same thing that I went through because I want to help someone who went through what I went through! Dealing with suicidal thoughts is no joke at all and what kills me is people make jokes about it and it is not something you joke about and people lose their life everyday because they have no one to take them seriously and I wish people would take this seriously! I pray that one day, people will and take a stand!! For today's Bible Verse of the day, it is taken from Genesis 2:3 and it says "And God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it: because that in it he had rested from all his work which God created and made". We need to take rest from things that we are working on! We need to have that moment of rest because there days where we are constantly working and we need to have that break! Make yourself have a break! I love y'all and so does Jesus! Let's have a good day or had a good day! Let's always remember to Dream Big! Don't give up on your dreams! Let's also share the love of God where we go and show how cool Jesus is today and let's love like Jesus not just today but everyday and stay tuned for an all new blog episode where I will be talking about why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? I love y'all and Blogger Queen is out! Hugs and love, Blogger Queen!! ❤❤❤

 

Today's Bible Verse of the day!! We need to take a rest from work at times because it could genuinely drain us and if God wants to have rest, then rest because you deserve to have rest!! 

"And
something
inside me just
broke. That's
the only way
I could
describe it".
Ranata Suzuki. When you are dealing with suicidal thoughts, it is mentally breaking you down and tearing you down and you don't know how to deal with it and that's hard!! 

"When you feel like giving
up, just remember why
you held on for so long". -
Hayley Williams. I know that you will have days where you want to give up but just remember why you held on for so long! God wants you here and I want you here! Please, don't give up!! I love you!! 

"They Would Rather
Have You Messy And
Alive Than Not There
At All".
Jazz Thornton. I want you here and be a mess than not having you here at all! I might not know what you are dealing with right now, but I want you here more than anything in this world! Please, don't leave!! 

To complete today's blog episode, here is the song of the week! For this week's song of the week, I chose "Even When You're Running" by: Casting Crowns. I chose this song because we shouldn't escape from God's love because his love for us is inescapable and we need to love God with all our hearts! Love God today!! Also, love Jesus as well! 🤍🤍🤍