💛 Blog: My suicide attempt story!! Blog: Brandee Marie Darden! Date of blog: Monday, 10/6/25!! This blog is for anyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts! You are not alone in this journey! I am here for you! I love y'all!🧡 
Intro to my blog!!
Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here and welcome back to an all new weekly blog episode for the day! How are y'all doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing okay and well! Whatever y'all are going through, just know that I am always here for y'all, no mater what! Happy Monday or in other countries, Happy Tuesday! It's a brand new day of new blog and also a brand new week of new blogs coming your way! Who is ready for today's blog episode for the day? I know that I am but 1st here is a blog recap of last week's blogs: On my 1st blog page: On Monday, I talked how do I want to encourage others through the next months? For me, the way I want to encourage others around me is to remind each person how wonderful and amazing they are because everyone deserves to be encouraged by others and I pray that I can be an encouragement for the upcoming months!! The 2nd blog that I talked about on Wednesday which is my poem called "I will not fear". When I think about the title of my poem, I think about despite of me having fear, I think about how God will take care of me and will guide me through the darkness that I am going through! Whatever you are going through, God is there to take care of you!! The 3rd and final blog that I talked about on Friday which is my other poem called "Long road" by: Brandee Marie Darden! When I think about long road, I think about how God will put so many obstacles in our life and will put us on a long road to our destination but at the end of that journey, it was worth it because we made it that destination of our life!! We may go on a long road call life, but reaching to our destination is worth it! Want to more about this week's blog episodes? Well, you can check them out right here: →2nd blog page!←Link right here! Enjoy them! For this week's blog episodes, I will be talking about my suicide attempt story, why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life, and where am I at today? Stay tuned for this week's blog episodes and with that being said, let's get this blog episode started! Shall we? We shall!
Talking about my blog episode! Why did I choose this topic to talk about? What is this week's song of the week? Why did I choose this song for the week?
For this week's blog episode, I will be talking about my suicide attempt story! This blog is for anyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts! You are not alone in this journey! I am here for you! I love y'all! In this blog episode, I will be talking about for the people who are new to my blogging journey, what is my suicide attempt story? Why did I try to commit suicide? What caused my suicide attempt? Why did that thing try to cause me to suicide attempt? What is my advice to my Blogger Dreamers who are trying to commit suicide? Why would I give that advice to my Blogger Dreamers? Why did I choose this topic to talk about? I choose this topic to talk about is because people look suicide at a joke when it is not a joke! As the person who almost lost her to suicide, I delt with suicidal thoughts everyday of my life and I didn't know how to tell anyone!! That was hard for me! What is this week's song of the week? For this week's song of the week, I choose "Even when you're running" by: Casting Crowns. When I listen to this song, when I think about how God's love is not escapable and we tend to run away from God's love! Don't run away from God's love! Why did I choose this song for the week? The reason why I choose this song for the week is because we tend to runaway from God's love and we need stop running away from God's love and let God handle us!!
The word "suicide". When I think about the word "suicide", what comes to mind? Why does it come to mind like that?
When I think about the word "suicide", I think about how sometimes people want to kill themselves and to me, it is sad to even think about. I was there in my life! When I was at my lowest of my low, I wanted to committed suicide. I didn't have much too live for and I didn't felt love which is totally false but my thoughts were telling me other wise!! Why does it come to mind like that? The reason why it came to mind like that is because people deal with suicide everyday. People struggle with suicidal thoughts and it is hard to deal with everyday. People joke about it and it makes me sick to my stomach! I wish people didn't make a joke about it! I pray that I can be an advocate for anyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts!! I want to be the voice for the voiceless because it is important to be that for someone!!
My suicide attempt story!
For the people who are new to my blogging journey, what is my suicide attempt story? To my Blogger Dreamers who are new to my blogging journey, in 2018, I try to commit suicide! I finally had enough of living and so, I wanted to kill myself! I couldn't stand the thought of living anymore! I moved and the year before, I lost two people who I loved the most and I just couldn't stand the thought of living so, in 2018, I wanted to kill myself but my family stopped me and I am glad that they did!!
Why?
Why did I try to commit suicide? The reason why I try to commit suicide is because I couldn't stand the thought of living anymore and I couldn't stand the thought of living without the people that I love and and I couldn't stand the thought with the thoughts in my head that would bring me down everyday and those thoughts did!! The suicidal thoughts would constantly bring me down everyday and I was at the point where I had enough and it was rough on me! I didn't know who tell and I felt like I had to keep it to myself and I felt like drained!! I felt like I wasn't good enough and that was rough!!
The caused my suicide attempt!!
What caused my suicide attempt? I think what caused my suicide attempt was years of bullying and abandonment issues! I was bullied for years and I had people leave me and abandoned me! I had people say "I am always here for you, no matter what" and when I heard that, I expect you be there for me but if you are going to leave me, then leave me! I need people who will be there for me, no matter what and to me, it was hard watching those people leaving me one minute and then, the next minute, them constantly coming back! It triggers me a lot and to this day, it still triggers me!!
Why?
Why did that thing try to cause me to suicide attempt? The reason why years of bullying and abandonment issues caused me to suicide attempt because through out my school years, I was constantly bullied and I felt like I couldn't say anything to anyone because if I try to say anything, it would make me a "snitch" and watching people walking into my life and them walking out of my life, it was hard!! Dealing with suicidal thoughts was killing me as well but I was afraid to tell anyone because I was afraid of being judged and that hurts so much!! To watch people who I thought loved me walking into my life and walking out of my life as they are pleased, it killed me everyday and to this day, it killed me so much!! I can't stand the thought of people walking in and out of life! It hurts me so much!!
My advice!
What is my advice to my Blogger Dreamers who are trying to commit suicide? To my Blogger Dreamers who are dealing with suicidal thoughts, my advice is you are worthy of love! You are worthy to be loved! It might not feel you are, but you have people who do love you more than anything! God loves you so much and Jesus loves you as well! You are loved by so many people! People care about you so much! I care about you so much!! I am here and I will never leave you!! I love people and I want you here so much! Please, don't leave! Please, stay and we will talk about it!! I am here to listen! I am not here to judge! I will pray over you in the name of Jesus! I love you! Remember that!
Why?
Why would I give that advice to my Blogger Dreamers? The reason why I would give that advice to my Blogger Dreamers is because it might feel like you are drowning, but you have people who do care about you and if you don't, then I want to be that person who wants to love you and care about you because I want you to know that I will be at your side when tough times occur and I am willing to listen to you because I don't judge! There are people who will judge you, but I don't and I will never leave you because that's not the person who I am! I love with all my heart and I am willing to love you and pray over you in the name of Jesus!! I care about you and I want you here, more than anything in this world! Don't leave!!
In closing/ Monday motivation!
In closing, in 2018, I try to commit suicide and for me, that was absolutely the hardest moment of my life! A part wanted to be here but another part of me wanted to leave because of years of hurt from the bullying and the abandonment issues, that was hard to deal with and to this day, I am still dealing with that because every time I get close with people, I am afraid of them leaving me and that to me is so hard because if those people don't want to stay by my side when things are the hardest and be there for me when things are good, then I don't need that person anymore in my life! I am in my late 20s and engaged and if you don't want to be apart of the most important part of my life, then you can leave! I can honestly say that I don't care! I am going to focus on people who do you love me and care about me!! I am not going to stand here and watch you leave out of thin air! I'm sorry but I have things to do for my life and I want to conquer things that God wants me to do!! Here is my Monday motivation to motivate my Blogger Dreamers: for Monday's motivation, it is if you see someone struggling, leave them a note! It will help them and encourage them so much!! Be that listening ear for that person because we need more people like that in this world! We need to be an encourager!! Let's motivate people today! I love y'all!
Well, hello my Blogger Dreamers! It's your girl aka the Blogger Queen herself, Brandee here to remind everyone that y'all just reached the end of today's blog episode for the day! I pray that this blog episode touched y'all's hearts! I know for me, it was hard to talk about because for me, it hurt me so much when I felt like I was at rock bottom of my life and I didn't feel like I belonged in this world but now, I have a new purpose in life and I pray that I can be a light to someone who might feel the same thing that I went through because I want to help someone who went through what I went through! Dealing with suicidal thoughts is no joke at all and what kills me is people make jokes about it and it is not something you joke about and people lose their life everyday because they have no one to take them seriously and I wish people would take this seriously! I pray that one day, people will and take a stand!! For today's Bible Verse of the day, it is taken from Genesis 2:3 and it says "And God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it: because that in it he had rested from all his work which God created and made". We need to take rest from things that we are working on! We need to have that moment of rest because there days where we are constantly working and we need to have that break! Make yourself have a break! I love y'all and so does Jesus! Let's have a good day or had a good day! Let's always remember to Dream Big! Don't give up on your dreams! Let's also share the love of God where we go and show how cool Jesus is today and let's love like Jesus not just today but everyday and stay tuned for an all new blog episode where I will be talking about why we shouldn't beg people to stay in our life? I love y'all and Blogger Queen is out! Hugs and love, Blogger Queen!! ❤❤❤
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Today's Bible Verse of the day!! We need to take a rest from work at times because it could genuinely drain us and if God wants to have rest, then rest because you deserve to have rest!!  something inside me just broke. That's the only way I could describe it". Ranata Suzuki. When you are dealing with suicidal thoughts, it is mentally breaking you down and tearing you down and you don't know how to deal with it and that's hard!!  up, just remember why you held on for so long". - Hayley Williams. I know that you will have days where you want to give up but just remember why you held on for so long! God wants you here and I want you here! Please, don't give up!! I love you!!  Have You Messy And Alive Than Not There At All". Jazz Thornton. I want you here and be a mess than not having you here at all! I might not know what you are dealing with right now, but I want you here more than anything in this world! Please, don't leave!! To complete today's blog episode, here is the song of the week! For this week's song of the week, I chose "Even When You're Running" by: Casting Crowns. I chose this song because we shouldn't escape from God's love because his love for us is inescapable and we need to love God with all our hearts! Love God today!! Also, love Jesus as well! 🤍🤍🤍 |
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